Happy New Year 2007

Wish that all the blogger Happy New Year 2007

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The Date I Never Had Before

This was what happened on yesterday…

Ban, made a date with me on 25^th night at Gtalk. We planned to meet on Thursday (28^th) and the time and place we planned later.

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Day after day, come to the day before the date. This is the SMS sent by Ban to confirm, but lastly…

(Before this we did discuss for the place and I gave him two choices – KLCC or the Curve, and he said we go out in the morning)

1^st message(3:08pm): How about I pick you from the station (He mean LRT at Kelana Jaya), in the curve. After that I want to pick up my boy from his house at puchong.

2^nd message(3:39pm): We pick him when we’re done. I dunno the curve’s times, please set a time to meet. Maybe we pick him after lunch. Or pick him for lunch, depends when curve open.

3^rd message(4:23pm): Er… Pick him after lunch? You mati mati dun want to be spot light… maybe another time? I’m alright actually. Tomorrow not so free. :-P

Then the date cancel after I send him the confirm message. Then I started to plan meet my friends at some where of the KL city. Before my friends give me any reply, I get the phone call from Ban at night when I still half way to buy my dinner. He told me tomorrow he will send his boy to the institute which near to Baby’s place and pick me up, then we go to pick Alex and three of us go out. Then I agree and change all the plan back to origin.

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The night passed and the new day has come. Yesterday morning when I wake up, on the PC and saw Sam was online. Then I look at the clock, now is 11 in the morning. My heart felt something wrong and I message Ban, ask him to confirm what time he will arrive.

His reply(11:26am): One? Something like that I pick him from his place at twelve.

Ok then I trusted Ban and start to ready myself to go out.

Ban (11:47am): Er. Looks like my boy is going to take longer than expected. Maybe we’ll arrive at two.

Then I stop from preparing and try to blogging but the Internet not co-operate with me. Can not blogging then what can I do at this moment is to watch some TV series – Heroes.

After some times I received the call from Ban

He said: Hey guy, I think you better take lunch first. My boy haven’t finished his work.

Look at the clock again, the clock shows that the time almost 2pm. Then I message Ban again and ask him was he on the way or almost arrive. What a surprise answer from his call is: Oh, sorry I still at Puchong… Emmm… I think 3:30pm I’ll arrive your place. I also don’t know when this guy can finish his work.

OMG… What the… This time you still at Puchong??!!! In between this I keep on message Alex, who at the same situation as me, waiting this two fellow…

Time still running and now is 3:15pm… I received a phone call from Sam, the main causes for this case…

He said: Em, I think we will arrive around 4 or 5pm.

Me: WHAT!!!??? 4 or 5pm???!!! What you said? Repeat again please.

Sam: Oh no, I mean around 4 to 5pm we will arrive.

Me: Then is 4 OR 5pm… there is a big different in between the time!!!!!

(For you who read till this part what will you think?? Or how you feel?? What the f…)

At this moment, I finished the third episodes of Heroes. I do not thing but only can keep on waiting. They didn’t cancel our date but keep on delaying us. Actually Baby keeps on calling me and I can’t give him any confirmation.

Are these two fellows really come on time at 4 to 5pm??? Absolutely NO… they fetched Alex around 5pm but not me, I still waiting with the fourth episode of Heroes. When the time I receive Alex’s call I thought that they arrive but what Alex told me is to wait some more, he said these guy take the wrong way and now finding the right one, some more now is the peak hours, the traffic was jam.

OMG… Why I have to wait for so long??? I really mad… my photography class can’t on… I wasting my time staying alone at home… then they keep on delaying me for 7hours…

I never had been delayed for more than 3hours. Not even the Air Asia, which famous with the delay issue been delayed me for that long…

This was not delay for 7 minutes or 70 minutes but is 7 hours. What kind of date is this?

HEY GUYS!!!! Next time be PUNCTUAL please!!!!! I 'm not really HAPPY with it!!!

Lastly I asked myself: Why I keep on waiting for these fellows????

The answer is: I trust these guys will keep their words, but they make me so disappointed.

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The Six Months Anniversary

The Sixth Months Anniversary

Baby,

Our relationship in the…

Half a year

6-months

184-Days

4,416-Hours

264,960-Mins

15,897,600-Secs

1^st month baby came back from campus, and baby’s intern almost one month…

11-Days I stayed with Baby since mommy went to visit daddy, we did spend a lot of quality time and a lot of happiness in it…

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The Rules for the GAME

The Rules for the GAME

I called this as a Game; it’s a one-to-one game. This game not allows the third party, and I don’t wish that you not the third party. In this one-to-one game got some important rules, which we meet to concern for it. (Maybe you not agree with some of the point, and then I wish that you could share it out with me, or you got some points that not in my list, then share it out too. I’ll appreciate it.)

# Before you come into the relationship or when you still got chances to choose, please make the right choice. Find your right ‘Coffee’ or ‘Tea’. This is for them who lost the ‘spectacle’ and ‘chin chai’(simply) grab one guy as your partner. This always happened and most of them end up with sad ending or with the funny reason: Oops… I found the wrong person.

# If found your coffee or tea then please don’t try to change this ‘Coffee’ or ‘Tea’ to become ‘Fruit Juice’ or ‘Soft Drink’. First I wanna ask: Why you choose this guy? No matter what answer you will give me, love the man for who he is… Why you want to choose someone and try to modify him to match with your needs? If you really want him to change why not you go and find the right one? No one is prefect, try to accept his weakness, but that doesn’t mean this guy need to do changes to make himself perfect then only can be your man. If really got something you wish that he need to improve, then try to discuss it but not forcing him to do that. Some changes made then this guy is no longer the one you found before. If he didn’t tell you that actually he not happy with all this changes on him, then this will make him unhappy or uncomfortable, this maybe the reason at the end of the relationship.

# Learn how to share. This share mean share all the feelings and problem out. Today you love this guy then for sure you will say: I love you. This is one example of share. But most of the times we forget to share out all the bad feeling or the problem out to our partner when we noticed it’s happened. Sometimes either of you can figure out or notice the problem so why not you share it out? We always share the good part but not the bad side. Share out the feeling, no one can know what is in your mind, so if it not come out from your mouth then no body know what you thinking and how you feel. Share it out and shove the problem. (Not just share) don’t keep it inside your heart that will bring out more problems.

# Financial Independence. This is one of the rules for normal couple, unless you found the one is your sugar daddy. The financial issue is depends on individual so cannot give much comment on this.

# Please cares your partner feeling. Some people like to point out all the bad thing of his partner and share it with friends even the partner is in front of you. Do you think the partner will feel happy when you share it out? Should he give you the bad face or should he keep on smiling to cover himself? When you wanna discuss anything regard your partner please talk with him personally but not in front of public. If you always do this then one-day something will reflect on you too.

# Try to accept your partner. This related with the point before this. None of us are wonderful so please accept all the weaknesses of your partner. Whatever mistake he made then you discuss with him (once again, personally) and solve it. *Cautions, when you all discuss regard the problems remember control your temper.

# Are you the controller in the relationship? If yes, please let yourself out from that position. Life is to share but not to control. No one got the rights to control anyone in their life. Some children will tell their parents: This is my life, give me some freedom and please don’t control it. You have to take care your partner but not control his life.

For now this is what come out from my mind, maybe got more rules that we need to know.

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The Relationship

Today blog is to answer some thing from Mr. Ban’s blog. (Ban, too long for me to reply in your comments)

1. Commitment shouldn't happen when one doesn't understand what commitment is and what life is. Otherwise you're bound for disaster. (The young usually understand neither) My answer: I’m totally agreed with this point. Commitment needs to be understood by both parties and really think carefully for the future. (if you really think for the long term relationship) Every time we heard that some couples broke with the reason ‘they knew each other’ (understand each other), when understood each other will it come out with a lot of problems? Then the disaster will come. Communication before you start any relationship is really important, just like before Lion King and me, we did talk for the whole month then only we came into it. Why? Because I got a bad experience from my last relationship. That really a good example for this topic cause I start that relationship after 3 days I knew this person than our relationship just happened like what inside the drama. Everything too perfect. In those 3 months we did a lot of things. Easy come easy go, this real.

2. Love isn't that when you wake up in the morning and you look at your partner and decide that you don't love him anymore because the feelings of romance are gone. Romance only lasts about 5 years. After the courtship period is over, there's not much more point to it.

My answer: Romance, this is what Lion King gave me in the first day we met. But that doesn’t totally get my heart. Ya romance only a short feeling and we cannot said that we love someone cause this guy know how to create a lot of romantic time. Romance just like the sugar or creamer in the coffee but it can’t replace the coffee. Coffee = Love in the relationship. Love from where? From the bottom of your heart. 3. Love that works best is based on faith in god. Next up is based on family and the children. Most people are based on "Are you good for me?"

My answer: Ya, from the religion base we did say that our love based on God, cause everything is from God. I thank God for giving me all this relationship cause I did learn a lot from each of the relationship. Before you get your true love sure you will face with some bad relationship. That is to practice and ready you for your true love. (at least this is what I think) Next is based on family and children??? Family yes but not really need to be have children cause I did know one someone they can’t have children but their relationship last for almost 40 years (both of them my teacher for high school), their love based on God and each other. 4. LDRs? Some people are together all the time and stray the moment there's opportunity. Some people are often apart, but stay faithful to the end. (Trust, loyalty and character are an issue)

My answer: Ya, I did share about this LDR in my blog before this. No trust, then this relationship meaningless. Faithful, can everyone do this? But for me long term of LDR is not a good idea cause human need physical intimacy. Discuss more for this in the next point. 5. LDRs don't work because they're based on physical intimacy.

My answer: Yes, I agree with this. Short term of apart is ok, Chinese said Short term of apart make the relationship more intimacy than you just married. *Caution: not long term. Human will change his mind when long term he can’t get the physical intimacy. This change will bring the disaster for the relationship. Then end up with the reason: no more feeling, knew less from this man, don’t know what you doing at the other side, this . that… bla bla bla…

Any idea after you read this? Share it out please.

Relationship is a hard work; we need to learn it from time to time. Coming up I’ll share some [[Rules in this GAME]] in my coming few posts. Let us discuss and learn more from it, maybe this will help in your relationship too. Let us grow our relationship, let the relationship be healthy and strengthen. Good luck for you all in this GAME.

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Merry Christmas

, Lion King

Lion King 5201314 Apollo and His Story

《同性恋长久伴侣关系》Maintain the Relationship

《同性恋长久伴侣关系》的例子

阿强和小伟住在广州白云区，他们维持同性恋关系已经有十个年头了。他们作为特邀嘉宾到上海复旦大学《同性恋研究》的选修课主讲《同性恋长久伴侣关系》课程。阿强说，如果广州大学城有相关的课程，他和爱人也非常乐意现身说法”，让广大学生了解同性恋。 阿强给记者看了在复旦大学上课的照片，课堂座无虚席，连过道都挤满了人。“不排除有很多猎奇的人，但是只有他们真正了解了，才能真正消除歧视和偏见。”阿强说，“我认为所有问题都可以问，因为没有任何东西是需要隐瞒的。” 很多学生想知道在日常生活中，阿强和爱人谁扮演男性谁扮演女性。阿强说：“如果我喜欢女人，不如直接找个女朋友，为什么要找个男人来扮女人呢？”他坦诚的 回答得到了学生们的认同。在阿强的博客上，很多学生对这次讲课持肯定态度，他们从阿强和小伟身上了解到同性恋也有长期稳定的家庭生活。 阿强说，科学认为，同性恋在普通人群里占4％。但多数同性恋由于社会压力，羞于承认，或者找个异性结婚来掩饰自己的性取向，但是这样反而造成更多无辜的人不幸福。 另外，由于法律法规的空白，同性恋的恋爱关系在财产权、继承权等方面也无法保证，这也使很多同性恋者对长久的伴侣关系望而却步。“其实社会已经逐渐变得宽容，否则我和我爱人也无法走到今天。”阿强说。

我个人非常欣赏阿强的胆识，他愿意公开谈论他的隐私，让大众了解同性恋。他其中说到几个

非常重要的重点：

-阿强说：“如果我喜欢女人，不如直接找个女朋友，为什么要找

个男人来扮女人呢？” 。在同性恋的恋情里并没有男方与女方之分。

-但多数同性恋由于社会压力，羞于承认，或者找个异性结婚来掩饰自己的性取向，

但是这样反而造成更多无辜的人不幸福。

-还有，由于法律法规

的空白，同性恋的恋爱关系在财产权、继承权等方面也无法保证，这也使很多同性恋

者对长久的伴侣关系望而却步。这都是同性恋所面对的问题。

Qiong and his lover, Wei from Guangzhou. They getting together almost ten years. They invited to be the guest for one forum in one of the Shanghai Local University for the topic of “How to maintain a long term relationship (gay)?”

Qiong shows reporter the photo in the forum; inside and outside of the hall full with the people who want to know what they wanna share and how is the gay man life goes on. Qiong shared what the people wanna know and let them understand the gay's life, let them try to accept them.

Someone ask Qiong, in the daily life, Qiong and his lover who will be the ‘boy’ and who be the ‘girl’? Qiong answer: If I really want a ‘girl friend’, why not I looks for a girl? This answer accepted by all the people in the hall. Qiong share and let them know how the relationship being maintains for almost ten years.

The relationships hard to be maintain part of the reason from the pressure given by the society and they choose married to cover up themselves. The right for a gay couple are not protected under the laws so this was the big challenge for a gay couple.

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Apollo and His Story

Is There any ‘U’-Turn???

Suddenly this question comes into my mind:

In queer life, is there any ‘U’-Turn?

A hard decision/answer behind this simple question.

What reason come to us and make us to do the U-turn?

- Family?

- Because you are the only son in the family?

- Wanna have own family, child?

- Worries this kind of relationship cannot last long?

- Want to feel being a ‘normal couple’; do what they do in the public?

- ……

- …..

- ….

- …

- ..

- .

- (a lot of reasons or excuses…)

WHY???

... But I remember someone did told me there was

no turning back in this Queer's World...

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The Life of QUEER

The Life of QUEER

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Sharing Life

Are you ready to share your life with someone????

Ban did tell me: sharing your life with others is not that easy…

Yes I agree with it. When two came into each other’s life then everything will change.

For my case the 1^st changes in my life after I come into this relationship is the place I work and stay. Then I became the blogger is the second changes, then…

Go into a relationship and sharing the life was different. When you came into a relationship actually is easy but what difficult is when you stay together. Sharing your life with the one you loved by facing each other everyday really challenge. Chinese said: 相处好，同住难 (Xiong Qu Hou, Tong Ju Nan) mean when staying together sure will facing some problem or argument. Sure got someone will say: solve the problem with ‘love’ then ok. Then I wanna ask: is there all the problem really can solve by this ‘Love’?

I’m not facing the problem now but I did felt it. Argument, for sure everyone will face it but what important is don’t let it break the relationship.

迁就

迁就到底是好事或是坏事？当然一方迁就另一方可以阻止发生口角，但是迁就的限度到底到哪里呢？

每个人都有个人意见，当意见不和的时候又有谁能经常做出让步的那位呢？

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何谓朋友的力量

朋友的力量。。。 何谓朋友的力量？？？ 这个问题徘徊在我脑海中，利用电脑GOOGLE“朋友的力量”。。。找到。。。某人的心声。。。 其实人在空虚的时候'在寂寞的时候'在无聊的时候'最大的力量莫过于朋友,每当我想到朋友我都很欣慰,你知道吗朋友是一种 无声的力量,因为只要朋友知道你的苦衷,没有一个置之不理的,没有一个不关心的,当我在艰苦的环境中工作时,当我面临了许多的困惑时,是我的朋友给了我力 量,她告诉我,相信自己是最好的,只是个时间问题,要让自己更成熟,就要经受来自社会的考验,我度过了困惑,得到收获.那时我就感到了朋友的力量!当我在 农村时遭到带队干部的冷眼时,是朋友教会我做人要有志气,要有忍耐,不要被暂时的困难吓倒,我挺过来了,是靠在朋友肩上支撑起来的,我不会忘记我的朋友. 刚参加工作我的困难很多,工作又很累,又没有选择考学,有的领导个人成见很重,我天生就有不服输的性格,所以来自方方面面的打击也很大,我很无奈,也很幼 稚,几乎病倒了.是朋友的关心使我找到了希望,使我重新养好了伤,鼓起了生活的勇气,我重新的看待这个社会,审视了人与人之间的那种微妙的关系,换一个角 度,换一种思维,我竟然接受面前的一切,是朋友的力量,让我走近了社会. 不停思考同一问题。。。 没有答案。。。 或者说答案太广了。或者可以说朋友的力量实在太大了。 Lion King 5201314 Apollo and His Story

Photography Class (2) – Practical Class

Last night spend few hours to read the book borrowed from Alex and do some notes for myself. Knowing part of the theory and today come to the practical part. Before Alex told me, I thought that I’ll use the normal digital camera to take the photo. I did borrowed Lion King’s digital camera and ready myself to use this camera to take some shoot. I was so happy when I received the SMS from Alex told me that I’ll use his camera to so this practical part. I never dream that so fast I can use that camera and I never dream that I can use Alex’s camera cause for a camera man, camera is their life and it is the weapon for them to get what they want. For me, I think is a bit fast for me to start using this powerful camera cause I haven’t know how to control it and haven’t learn all the technique to use it. Thank you Alex, for giving me these chances to use your lovely camera and trust on me.

Walking around the KLCC park and take some photo, suddenly ask me to take some photo I don’t know what I should take. Inside my mind got a lot of idea but it’s a bit hard for me to present my idea on my photo because I still need to learn more technique before I can bring out all my idea.

Spending two hours plus I took 60 photos in this park; I haven’t reviewed what I took and haven’t got the comments from my lecturer. I really enjoy the time, I wish that I can have my own camera and spend some time to take some nice photo.

My dream come true, I started to learn what I wish… Photography.

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Apollo and His Story

Photography Class (1) – Theory Class

This was the first day for my photography class. Alex really a good lecturer, his explanation clears enough for this new student to get all the point (theoretically). After 4-5 years this was the first day I get back to photography. The last class for me was in the studio be an assistant to do bridal shooting.

Today I start from the basic… learn how to frame a photo, colours, zoom, balance… cause of the weather we not doing the practical shooting. After knowing all the rules of photography then we come into the section of ‘read’ the photo. Alex shows me one book full with the pictures taken by the different people. The title of the book is ‘Trees’.

Sharing

Alex keeps on mention that we are sharing our knowledge and not calling this as a class. Ya, we do share: he shares his knowledge and I share my story because I got not much knowledge in this area.

摄影

今天我正式做回我自己，找回多年来搁在一旁的老朋友，透过一位好朋友的协助，让我寻回自己的兴趣。其实当初会将摄影暂搁一旁有许多原因。

(一) 金钱支助。摄影并不是一门“便宜” 的兴趣，它每个部分都需要花不少钱。相机，配件，参考书等等需要不少的花费。

(二) 知识门路。当年没拿摄影为主修科是因为家里人的反对。现在完成我的课程后也无法如愿以偿，因为还有三年的合约在身。我找了几间学院，他们都提供全职课程。

(三) 分享成果。之前并没有志同道合的朋友，所以并不能分享彼此的作品。作品需要会评论的伯乐，才会有乐趣，也才会有进步。

现在终于让我有机会找到志同道合的朋友，完成学业后真正领薪水，能支付摄影开销，还让我遇上愿意教我的朋友，这让我不能错失宝贵的机会，寻回自己的梦想。

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Get Back What I Missed

Thanks for Alex because he willing to spend his time to teach me about the photograph. After I finished my course now I got time to learn what I missed last time. I don’t wish that after I get my certificate then I only work, work and work… I try to learn more and spend some time for my hobbies.

Now the dance class will stop for a while cause SilentS will go for his holiday with his family and it take one month time.

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Private Time Coming Back

Get the call from Baby this morning and Baby told me a great news – Mommy will go to Daddy’s place for two weeks… this is what I waiting for – Our Private Timeeeeeee… Yeah!!!

Oh, start from next Monday I’ll stay at Baby’s place for two weeks… this time even longer then last time but I hope that it won’t happen the same thing like last time - Baby’s brother come back in our private time…

The second practical time is coming… what will happen in this coming to weeks? ‘Wait and see la’…

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The Size of the Bed

This morning Baby find out I’m slept on the floor. Normally the extra mattress on the floor is use to “decorate”. Last night I watch the TV series – Heroes, till late and Baby slept while I still watching it. The pose Baby slept blocking me to sleep beside. Then only I move and slept on the extra mattress.

Then it comes to the matter of the bed’s size. I think we need the super single bed or the queen size bed is better. :) When the size of the bed bigger then we got more space for all the soft toys and us… :P

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Maintain the Relationship

Sitting inside the KFC in Carrefour Wangsa Maju while waiting Ban’s Boy Boy finish his meeting, Ban and me did chat something regard our relationship. There got a main point for the conversation – How to maintain a relationship???

This question always in my mind but never got the right answer. Every time I facing Lion King actually I wanna chat this topic with him but I don’t know how I gonna start it and I only got the question but not answer or solution.

What I mean to maintain the relationship is how we gonna bring the relationship back to the top after some times or when we felt “boring” (m I using the correct word?) with it. what I mean is how I gonna “refresh” the relationship.

ANY ONE CAN TELL ME???

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Shopping Day / Family Day

Today should be no plan and i thought me and Lion King will stay at home pass a lovely sunday. But when we wake up at 12pm, Mommy ask two of us to get ready, Mommy planned to go to shopping at Mid Valley. Mommy want to get the new pant and shoes for Lion King. This Family day lunch at Domino Pizza at Mid Valley. After that we shop in the Mid Valley to get the pant. We spend long time to find the shoes for Lion King. Mid Valley just like my second home so I can show them the way to find the shoes. After the family shopping then we go out with Ban and LS (Lion King's Friend) for dinner. We take dinner at Asia Cafe. I'm so suprice Ban not going back to Malacca with his family, thanks for his lovely BF... hehehe... This 'Ganas BF' done a great job till Ban can't meet with the grandparents. Ban passed the job of planning for the gathering at the end of the year. Need the co-operation of all the queer who attend the gathering. Lion King 5201314 Apollo and His Story

Sick Sick and Sick Some more...

What the doctor told me that day it really happened, I really get a bad sore throat. It happened on the 2^nd day I met the doctor. Long time never get the sore throat as pain as this. All of us eating the same food in Melacca but why me get all this sickness??? Bad mood de…

When the sore throat can be gone??? Pain~~~

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I'm Sick

4.30am I woke up and felt that my body was hot but I felt cold. I move down from the bed and sleep on the floor while Lion King still in his sweet dream. I slept until Lion King woke me up and he felt that my body really hot. Yes, I’m fever.

Lion King want me take a rest at his house but I can’t cause I need to send him to office, this is the first day h work. I did promise him that I’d accompany him to meet his friends who work at the same company with him.

After send him to the LRT station near his working place, I went back to my hostel. On the way back I felt that myself can’t really stand well and I felt so cold inside the LRT. I knew how I get this fever. Yesterday when we came back form Melacca the weather was damn hot and we walk to the LRT station. Then we go into the cooling place. After came out from my hostel then we take the LRT again to KLCC meet with Mommy. Cold, Hot, Cold, Hot, Cold, Hot… then I get this fever.

Just now the doctor checked on me. She said I got fever and my throat was infected. This kind doctor gave me two days off and few packs of medicine (for fever, headache and a combination of Vitamin B + C).

I still leave at office for half day, to settle some works cause I been take leave for so long, a lot of things I need to settle. I think this two days I’ll stay at hoe and watch the TV series which I bought.

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复杂的心情

我现在的心情非常异常，情绪不太稳定。外在的我正在享受马六甲的风景与美食，内在的我反反复复地想着某些事。

先交代这几天所发生的事吧。。。

30日 - 与狮子王及兔宝宝到时代广场看了一部戏 – Casino Royal。再来就与狮子王修了一个新的发型。晚餐与一班部落格客在KLCC共进晚餐，出席者包括- LG，DR，BAN，狮子王，我及一位第一次见面的SAM。有DR在的场合永远不会冷场，再加上幽默风趣的SAM，整个聚会笑声连连。平日多话的我当场收起宝剑，无法融入话题当中，此时只好当当听众吧。(当然心情会因此而走下坡)

01日 - 今天与狮子王，兔宝宝及一位可爱的女生(她是狮子王的同科同学) 在The Curve 的Red Box 唱歌。我非常享受此时的感觉。

晚上来到Hartamas上了一生中第一堂舞蹈课。教课老师就是刚从澳洲回来的SilentS。

(没太多心情清楚交代一切，此时的我恨不得来场Kick Fit。内心深处一直有着异常的变动。)

02-03日 - 马六甲之旅

谢谢兔宝宝东跑西颠地带我与狮子王走遍马六甲吃尽到地美食。(我也不多加解释马六甲所发生的事，有兴趣可能可以在狮子王或兔宝宝的部落格找到吧。难以平伏的心情操纵一切的思索)

看了一堆废话可能现在的你会问：到底这一切与今天的标题有何关联？

答案：我也不懂。。。

我只知道当中搀杂了我与狮子王的关系，我的前途与钱途，生活的作息。。。

就请你给我一点时间吧！让我清醒一下，可能我可以找出当中的原因。

心情非常不稳定。。。可能我太在意某些事吧！

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Write not thing… I lost myself… My mind been controlled by the random thought.

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Counting the Daysssss

Yesterday got a ‘funny’ guy asked me: Why you keep on counting the days for the relationship in between you and Lion King, some more each of the month have anniversary… (Maybe you will ask this too) Now I answer this question.

Get a relationship is easy. Start a relationship is fast. At the same way, end up a relationship is easy too. After started a relationship you need to keep it warm is not that easy. It just likes you holding an egg in your hand. You have to care this egg with full of your attention. I really love Lion King, our relationship started from the name of ‘friends’ till now.

I keep on counting the days for our relationship because I think that the 1^st year in our relationship is the unstable year. This year is the year we learn and getting knows each other deeper. I keep on remind myself we are come to this stage and we need to do more things in our relationship.

I make an example with “When the building BORN”

Building comes with the base first. Then you can see it build up then done. This is what you see. After few years then you will celebrate how many years this building been build.

I still remember when I’m work in the construct company, each of the project we need to summit the report for each of the stage for the progress. Every time I need to take the photo for each of the block of the building and do a report for it. You can see how the building gets done. The report for each of the periods just like what I’m doing now. Our relationship started and it’s growing.

Building always celebrates its anniversary after its build but only part of the building got mention how long does it take to build it up. A relationship needs this too. We need to know we take how long to get this relationship stable and mature. A relationship may end up when it half way to be mature. When the relationship getting mature then we will come to another level for it.

Maybe I’ll counting this days till it celebrate it one year anniversary… or I’ll keep on counting it till the end of my life.

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5th Month Anniversary

Today is the fifth month of anniversary for me and Lion King. 154-Days Now Lion King came back from campus and we started to enter our life in the next level. I Love You, BABY Lion King 5201314 Apollo and His Story

My Nightmare was Gone

I received my practical result and the institute informed me I get pass for the all sections… Yeah!!! Now I can sleep well. Since last week I knew the result would out soon. We are waiting for the email from UK. This morning my classmate calls me and informs me to get my result from institute. I’m so nervous when I’m holding the phone and waiting for someone answer the call. When I heard that: oh… Mr. David, you get all “pass” for all your sections…

OMG…can I believe it??? Am I dreaming???… Oh… I double confirm with my candidate number. Yes, I’m pass…

Now I’m free from the exam, end up my study life for this course and entered into the next level.

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Bad Mood Day

On the way back to KL

Packing all the stuff and move it from the campus back to KL. Mommy asked about the trip and this remind my sadness. After heard it and it control my mood. My face lost the smile. All the bad mood come towards me.

I keep silent all the while when we taking lunch at the KFC restaurant. Mommy can felt I’m not happy and asking me to plan for the coming weeks but I told mommy that I can’t always arrange my time to match with all the people. I need to arrange with the people who work with me and Baby’s time ( baby start to work on December ). Some more need to match with the time for the one who join us for the trip.

Inside the car was so silent. I try to control my mood. I can’t really sleep inside the car cause my mind keep on thinking the cancelled trip. I cancel my leave and I received all the message ask regard why I cancel the trip. My manager heard my sound and she said she worry about me. Without the reflection from the mirror I know how my face looks like at this moment.

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Back to School

Back to School

Spending 3 hours in the bus and lastly arrived in front of Baby’s campus. Why I came to Baby’s campus? Just come to visit the campus and meet with all Lion King’s friends. The feeling so different when I’m standing in front of the campus main entrance. Waiting Baby’s friend come and fetch me at the guardhouse.

I’m meeting with Baby’s friends with the tired face cause I just came back from the clubbing at 6am and after 3 hours of sleep I need to wake up and catch the bus. I’m go to clubbing not for fun but to celebrate my friend’s birthday. It not fun at all cause all of the lady go for dance and leave me at the bar to help take care for their little bag and drinks. I sat there for 4hours… this was the first time I’m enter the pub without enjoy myself with dance. I got no choice cause I’m the only guy in the group.

So happy to meet with my lovely baby. Hugging him is so real and long time I didn’t felt his body warm on me. Happy to meet with his friends too. They are funny. We are spending the great time on our dinner and teatime at the coffee bean. They told me a lot of funny things happened all this years in their campus life, this really make me jealous cause I never have a campus life after my high school.

We spend the long time at the coffee shop and I’m entered into their life. If I’m not staying in Malaysia but continue my study at Taiwan after my high school maybe I can enjoy my campus life too. (Sure I can’t meet with Lion King if I really go to Taiwan)

The memories cannot buy and cannot grab. Only when you are inside you can felt it yourself. Enjoy every moment you have.

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Drop from the ‘apex’ of the happy moment

There was the great time but something happened in the middle of it. Baby received a call from his cousin; they inform them that they bought the bus ticket for him and want him to accompany them to Singapore from 27-29… This news really hurt me cause actually we planned to go to Malacca on 27 and 28. OMG… Why this happened after we planned for long. All my planned cancel and my mood spoiled. I can’t show my disappointed face in front of them. I planned to celebrate our fifth month of anniversary at Malacca, but now…

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同志天生：研究发现同性恋者大脑反应有别常人

同志天生：研究发现同性恋者大脑反应有别常人 据一项新的研究证明，女同性恋者的大脑对性激素的反应跟正常的异性恋妇女的大脑反应相比是不同的，这与以前对男同性恋大脑的研究相符合，研究表明，男同性恋大脑的反应与异性恋男性的大脑不同，当然，男同性恋的这种差异比女同性恋的差异更明显。 据瑞典的一个研究小组发表在《美国科学院学报》上的文章说，女同性恋者的大脑虽然不完全是，但部分地与异性恋男子的大脑反应相似。一年以前，这个研究小组也发表了研究报告，声称男同性恋者的大脑反应跟女异性恋者的大脑反应相似。这两项研究都为这样一种理论增加了证据，那就是同性恋有身体方面的原因而不是后天学习来的行为。美国安大略州汉密尔顿的麦克马斯特大学医学院的大脑解剖学与性取向专家桑德拉·韦特尔森说：“研究显示，性取向在男人和女人之间有着非常明显的不同，这不是映像问题。这一研究能够揭示一个重要的问题，那就是生物学因素决定着性取向。” 斯德哥尔摩大脑协会的专家伊凡卡·萨维奇领导了这一小组，他们让参与研究的志愿人员闻一闻来自男性和女性性激素的化学物质，这种化学物质是一种信息素，在许多动物中，这种信息素会引起防御或者性反应行为。尽管美国研究人员在2000年报告说他们相信有一种基因指挥着人类鼻腔中的信息素感受器，但人类对信息素能否做出反应一直存在着争论。 瑞典的这个研究小组去年也比较了男同性恋与异性恋的男女之间的不同，他们发现，男同性恋者的大脑在反应上不太与同异性恋一样，而更像是女异性恋者的大脑。最近的研究有着类似的发现，只不过女同性恋者大脑的差异没有上次发现的男同性恋者大脑差异那么明显。异性恋妇女对男性信息素与女性信息素感到同样的高兴，而男异性恋和女同性恋者对女性信息素比对男性信息素更有兴趣，男人和女同性恋者发现男性荷尔蒙比女性荷尔蒙对他们更有刺激，而女异性恋更容易受到女性荷尔蒙的刺激。 三个志愿小组都对男性荷尔蒙比对女性荷尔蒙更熟悉。据萨维奇和她的研究小组报告说，女异性恋者发现，两种荷尔蒙都一样强烈，而女同性恋和男异性恋发现男性荷尔蒙比女性荷尔蒙更强烈。当他们在闻男性荷尔蒙和女性荷尔蒙以及四种普通的气味时，三个小组都接受脑部扫描，所有的志愿人员都在大脑的气味处理区处理普通气味，而异性恋男子在气味区处理男性荷尔蒙，在视丘下部处理女性荷尔蒙，这一区域与性刺激有关。女异性恋者的大脑性敏感区处理男性荷尔蒙而在气味区处理女性荷尔蒙。女同性恋者都有普通气味区处理男性和女性荷尔蒙。

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The Power of the Movie

Tyler Gage (CHANNING TATUM) is a defiant rebel grown up all his life on the rough streets of the city in Baltimore he's unlikely to ever make it out of there. But after a brush with the law lands Tyler with a community service gig at the city's Performing Arts High and everything changes. That's when he meets Nora (JENNA DEWAN), the school's prima ballerina, an alluring diva who is desperately Tyler, but as they begin to train, the tension between them, and their polar opposite backgrounds, skyrockets. With everything on the line, Tyler will have just one performance to prove to Nora, and to himself, that he can step up to a life for larger than he ever imagined. Featuring an exciting cast of multi-talented young newcomers, STEP UP is a gritty story of transcendence driven by music and dance.

Set deep in Antarctica and into the land of Emperor Penguins, where each needs a heart song to attract a soul mate, a penguin is born who cannot sing. Our hero Mumble, son of Memphis and Norma Jean, is the worst singer in the world-however, as it happens, he is a brilliant tap dancer! ~~~~~~~~~~~~

On leave for two days, watched two lovely movies – Step Up and Happy Feet.

The meaning behind the movie really touched my heart. Step Up let me know that we should treat all our life or our future seriously and do it with full of our heart. I know myself always stop at the middle of the way when I’m doing something. The movie also make me wanna dance. I remember the coming month I maybe will attend the dance class by SS.

Happy Feet told us to protect our world – the only world for the human. The cute little penguins brought us a lot of lessons. The songs is nice and the way it dance really cute. Save our world!!!…

电影的力量

看了两部都与舞蹈有关的电影后，心里有不少的感触。Step Up - 在人生当中我们每位真的能找到自己的目标？又有几位真的能为自己的理想付出一切呢？很多时候这些伟大的理想都会因为我们半途而废，而胎死腹中。要成功真的需要一定的耐力与努力。这部长达一小时四十四分钟的“好戏” 真的值得一看，它打动了我的心，让我检讨我自己，面对我的过去，改变我的未来。这部戏也点燃了我对舞蹈的热情，看戏的同时我的身躯也不断的扭动。

另一部Happy Feet是一部环保电影，它讲述一位可爱的小英雄如何拼了他的小生命来救他的同类，同时也证明了他独特的见解(天外有天) 。利用他独一无二的舞步打动人类，让人类注意到这类企鹅所面临的问题。当中看到大自然被充满智慧的人类所破坏的情况，美丽的景象难于保存下去。这位小英雄打动了不少人心，还有它那颗寻求答案的决心让人敬佩。是时候轮到我们来拯救地球；而不是不断的破坏它。

电影并不只是在生活当中扮演着娱乐大众的角色，很多时候它为我们带来很多启发。它的力量是要呼唤我们沉睡已久的心灵，让它从回岗位，发挥一定的力量。

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