转帖自Leica中文摄影杂志： 『Time』一周摄影图片精选：Feb 20 - 26，2009

『Time』一周摄影图片精选：Feb 20 - 26，2009

Posted: 28 Feb 2009 04:12 PM PST

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Feberary 20 - 26, 2009
Sunday, Feb. 22, 2009
Moment 摄影师：Paul Buck
Anne Hathaway到场第81届奥斯卡奖，柯达剧院，好莱坞，加州
Anne Hathaway arrives for the 81st Annual Academy Awards at the Kodak Theatre in Hollywood, California.

Wednesday, Feb. 25, 2009
Holy Day 摄影师：Juan Karita
参加礼拜的人们同时进出一座天主教堂，玻利维亚
Worshippers enter and leave a Catholic church on Ash Wednesday in La Paz, Bolivia.

Monday, Feb. 23, 2009
Searching for Treasure 摄影师：Finbarr O'reilly
在金矿工作的淘金工人们，刚果

Satuday, Feb 21, 2009
一名因战乱而离开家园的女孩在整理她姐姐的头发，刚果

Tuesday, Feb 24, 2009
一群灰鹤在以色列北部的Ha-Hula湖聚集。

转帖自Leica中文摄影杂志：『另一种视角』一只猫的影像记录

『另一种视角』一只猫的影像记录

 

 

Cooper是一只刚满三岁的美国短毛猫，住在西雅图，每周，他都会背上一台小数码相机在西雅图这个大城市里探险，虽说是探险，其实最远也不会超过离家800米的公园，更多时间是在邻居家的草丛里寻找各种好玩的东西，并把这些好玩的东西拍下来。

 

有时，Cooper也会遇到同样出来散步的猫儿，不过，由于他是这个城市里唯一一只拥有一台相机的猫，面对同类就很有点神气了，轻易不会将镜头对准另一只猫──拍花花草草还来不及，哪顾得上给别人拍肖像呐。
Cooper的主人是一对开画廊的小夫妻，相机自然也是主人为Cooper特别制作的，当他戴上相机后，每2分钟会自动拍下一张照片，他的第一份作品就是拍了张两位主人拥抱的照片，你看，他还挺会拍马屁的吧？
随着时间推移，Cooper的摄影水平更是突飞猛进，连报社和电视台的记者们都被Cooper的作品打动了，从去年开始不断刊登Cooper的经历，在积累了足够多作品后，主人们决定给他开一个隆重的个猫影展，他最棒的作品也被挂到网上出售。

 

下面是Cooper的代表作品，你也可以在Cooper的Flickr相册上看到更多有趣的照片，从Cooper的经历里我们可以看到三个很简单的道理，也许可以对你有点帮助：

1.出门时一定要带上相机
2.按快门时不用太煞有介事
3.换个角度看世界也许更精彩

Too Heavy, Too Many

Today spent the whole day in the new house that we rent. Last night we cleaned it from the inside out, just ready it for me to setup my stuff. Today just, let the forwarder to pick up my stuff from the old place and sent it to the new one. When they move everything on the lorry then only I noticed that how much thing that I have, my stuff filled half of a 5tan lorry…

The driver asked me: “Are you moving together with your friends?”

Me: “Nope, from this apartment only me alone will move to the new place…”

Driver: “Oh, I thought the stuff behind are belong to three of you in the new place… Wao, you alone…”

Me: “.. .. .. Ya for me alone…” (^$%&^#$@!^^%%$*#)

So Kesian when I saw them carry my books and magazines, I saw that they complaint to their leader, that my stuff too heavy… :P I don’t think they know what’s inside the box, but only know that heavy than a man… that’s the reason why I pay them to move for me, because I know the stuff that I had packed cannot move by myself. I’m good in packing, trained from the experience of close down a branch by myself in three days time, alone… :)

After they unload everything, then I started to put the floor cover, take me more than 3 hours to get it done for two rooms. The deliveryman for the furniture shop reached my place on time and my room is ready for them to setup my bed set.

The rooms now ready to stay, just need to get the bed sheet for my new bed. I changed the size of my bed from single to queen size bed, so now my bed sheet for the single bed cannot use anymore, but have to buy the new one… Love to sleep on the big size, of course with someone next to me… ;P

The new wardrobe not really enough for me, but I have no choice since I’m broke now, cannot afford to get the 4-door wardrobe. Oh, forget that, after this if I need to move to some other places then I think the 5tan Lorry is not enough de… Just added some new furniture… :D

你为什么喜欢一个人 ？？

很常听见别人会问： “ 你为什么会喜欢上这个人？”

 

深思一番后得到的答案： 我可以很明确说出不喜欢一个人的原因， 但是就是不能说出喜欢一个人的理由。

 

很简单， 喜欢一个人， 是一种感觉； 不喜欢一个人， 欲是一个事实。 事实容易解释， 感觉却难以言喻

 

当我们爱上一个人的时候， 那份感觉就是一拍即合， 突然间生活上起了一定的变化， 脑袋一直对他心存一份思念， 很想亲近他， 更想拥抱他， 我们根本想不起当初为什么爱上他。

 

但是偏偏就当我们不再爱他的时候， 我们才会找出不喜欢他的原因， 其实这个时候我们已经开始挑剔。 人并非圣人， 所以只要我们开始挑剔， 那一定可以从他身上找到缺点。 我们越是挑剔， 越能让我们找出更多的缺点， 那个时侯我们便有很好的理由不喜欢他了。

 

打个比方， 当我们购物的时候， 如果我们真的喜欢上了那个物品的时候， 发现它出现了瑕疵， 但又没有第二件的时候， 我们还是因为太喜欢了， 必定还是会将就一下， 最后把它买下来。 反过来， 我们根本就是不喜欢那样物品的时候， 我们会用尽心思， 找出它的小小瑕疵， 再加以批评， 让我们有足够的理由不把它买下。

 

所以说， 分手的时候可以道出很多原因， 没有一定的答案； 但是结合就只有一个原因， 那就是不需要原因。。。

Let it Go

Sometimes I felt myself not good in handle my feeling and my mood, especially when I’m facing the one I loved. I thought that life should be simple, and same for relationship too; but when come to real, not thing is simple at all.

I might not know what in his mind, he may not tell me the truth, I might refuse to face the truth too… Communication, I know that communication playing an important role in relationship, but too bad, not every time it’s work. I’m kind of person who easy to get worry when I’m dealing with something ‘unknown’.

If he’s the one who likes to keep everything to himself but wish that I understand him, then so sorry, I cannot make it, just because I’m not the one who can read people’s mind. In this case, the relationship cannot move on and it will die soon. If he just wishes that, I’m the one who keep on sharing everything with him and he just be the receiver, same result, it cannot stand for too long.

I don’t know how to let my another half to understand that, how important for him to learn how to share with me. Sometimes my expectation is over, beyond than what he can do, so come to the end, I feel disappointed on him. I keep on reminding myself not to do so, just let it happen naturally, but too bad I’m not that kind of person who waiting for the apple to drop off from the tree. This make my life become more difficult and unhappy, that’s me…

Our Language

Rojak, reminds me that our language just like Rojak… Mixed with Mandarin, Cantonese, English, Malay…………

Moving into New Room(s)

Thanks God that on the last week of the month, we, me with another two friends, found our new place to stay. Today visited two houses, both in the same area, just to compare the condition of the house and the price too. At the end we pick the first one that we visited earlier.

So lucky that at the same week we found two houses for rent, in the same area, Seapark, just 5mins walk to the nearest Putra LRT station. We picked this area just because this is one of the area that the rental still below thousand, and it just near to the LRT station. The rental for the single storey is just RM 900 per month, come with 4 rooms.

The owner, don’t know her name, because we only know that the contact person, her son called David, is a nice person, she allowed us to do whatever we requested. The house is empty, after the last family moved out from there since few months before, and the owner did some minor renovation for the house.

Start from tomorrow I need to start to pack my stuff, survey for some furniture since this the first time I move out from hostel after six years staying in KL. Now is the time for me to setup the room with my own idea, as you know when you staying in hostel there is no other choices but to share the room with others, but now I can have my own private room, not one but two.

Forget to tell that I’ll get two rooms for myself, one is my bedroom, and another one will be my little office, after this it will be my little studio, wait until I finish setup for my bedroom. This is one of the reasons why I need to get the cheaper place to rent; I need to get two rooms, if the rental too high then I don’t think I can afford that.

Now the second room will temporary be my office, just to place all my books, and my desktop, while waiting for me to setup my bedroom. I think I need to take at least three months to get my bedroom fully setup because I cannot afford buy all the furniture in one shot. First is to get the queen-size bed, this to settle down myself and have a good bed to sleep every night. Then only will get other furniture… Setting up two rooms in the same time is a bit hard for the one who jobless for sometimes, so have to wait until I get my pay on April then only feel more comfortable to buy more stuff.

Thinking how to setup my bedroom… hmmm… color for the furniture… design… decoration… … …

难以捉摸

我的心很乱， 因为我无法捉摸你。 你很善变， 就如天上的云一般， 变换没撤， 你的心情也一样， 如不测之风云。 我要如何配合你？ 我要如何面对你？ 我又要如何给你反应？ 我不懂。。。 可能是我对你的了解还不够深， 又或者你实在忙得不可开交， 心情总是有点紧张， 思维有点错乱。 我告诉自己得包容你， 但是同一时间， 我也非常担心， 因为我总对无法掌握的事情有所恐惧。

 

我怕， 但是还是得面对， 就可能因为如此某些事情会爆发的不可收拾。。。 如果真的如此那我得如何？ 说好， 还是不说好？ 心很乱， 现在的我着急地不能只是形容为热锅上的蚂蚁， 因为我比那个还着急上百倍。 可能我得看开点， 不要如此执着， 不然下场一定很难看。。。

 

此刻除了担心还是担心。。。

My EPF… My Money…

Today went to EPF office to make the report, for the unpaid EPF. After printed out the list, just noticed that the stupid company, only paid for 4 months in 2007 and 1 month in 2008, the rest still doesn’t know where…

The pegawai asks me why now only make the report for it, I just told him during that time I’m under contract, so if I go and make the report, later they find out, they might do something on me, transfer me or something even worst. Since middle of the month I just finished and fulfill what in the contract then now I’m a freeman, can do anything I want de…

Now just wait for them contact me after they investigate, and send out the letter to that stupid company. Wish to get back my at least RM 10k for my EPF soon…

情人节。。。快乐。。。 Happy… Valentine’s Day…

这个情人节有快乐， 也有不快乐。

快乐：和一位知心朋友共进了一个愉快的早餐。 这份早餐让我觉得很温馨， 感受到今天的气氛。   这餐早餐让我毕生难忘。  (那么简单的早餐就让我感动不已了。。。 )

 

不快乐: 今天原本约了一位朋友出门， 原定中午， 但是这位朋友到了傍晚才出现。 算是失约吧， 我最讨厌人失约， 因为他把我一天的心情给打糟了， 让我待在家老半天没事干， 心情坏透了。 

 

没有情人的情人节有如此的待遇已经不错了， 毕竟不是一个人独自而过， 没有太多祈求了。。。

 

Happy Single Valentine’s Day…

怎么样的恋人

问题：你心目中想寻找怎么样的恋人？ 是你比较疼爱他的呢？ 还是要他比较疼爱你的？

恋爱战场上，和现实生活的写照一样， 是没有平等的， 所以必定会出现一方比另一方更为紧张的情况。 当然我们不一一分析当中的所有不平等，如果要一一道出的话， 可能会没完没了。 人们常说恋爱是没有得比较的， 不可以数算谁比谁更爱对方； 但是我认为两者的角色上有着一定的差别。

虽然说不上有太多恋爱经验的我， 也会遇上如此的状况， 那就可以肯定这个课题是多么普遍。 当然如果简单带过的话， 当一个被人爱的会比较幸福， 毕竟一切就变成被动了， 也不必太过于紧张， 必定你已经认定他是跑不了的， 已经乖乖留在你的五指山内了。 那么一听不就打沉了另一方的他？ 难道当主动的那一个就得沦落到如此的地步吗？ 虽然说是爱他爱到无法自拔， 也心甘情愿为他付出一切， 但是并不代表可以如此被人清漪对待。

找到爱你的， 疼你的是幸福的； 找到你爱的， 你疼的， 那是庆幸的， 因为至少有个值得你疼惜的。 爱付出并不求任何回报， 只求有人懂得珍惜， 懂得欣赏， 也接受你对他的爱意， 一切就值回票价了。 人生变化无常， 此刻你有了他， 下一刻没人可以保证还存在着， 还是好好珍惜眼前人吧！ 此刻才是最真实的。。。

New Job

This morning went for an interview, my first interview after 6years, a bit nervous since long time never attend any of the interview de. For the past 6 years, I’m the one who interview some other people but not others to interview me… Now my turn de…

Just a very simple interview, by showing my license, my ‘blue-cert’ (or usually called optician cert), the form I filled, one ID photo and one photocopy IC. Then he, Mr. E, just ask me when can I start working, and telling me which branch can I choose, and something about offday, that’s all.

Without asking too many question, he’d confirm de… then walk here and there, call some other people, to arrange which branch should I go. At the end, he give me the answer: “I’ll let you work with Eva for three months, then wait until our branch in Sunway will open around June, then will transfer you there, is that ok?” I just agree since he knows that I got no transport, that’s why he wants me to follow my friend who’s now working in Puchong Kinrara too.

In this company, at least 40-60% are ex-staff for our old company, most of them apply to this company since this company grows every fast and they schedule to open at least one branch in one month, this month will be the branch in IOI mall, then follow by Mid Valley Megamall. Even thought it just a very new company, open since end of 2007, but until now on-hand is almost 20 outlets de… Fast growing…

Now I need to settle my place to stay de, cannot move to the one I visited that day, because the location too far for me de… Maybe will stay in PJ area, so that easier for me when the time I transfer to some other places. Still have something to settle… Haiz… *headache

25 Little Secret about Me

Actually this is one of the notes from Facebook, kena tagged by J.Jr. Since posted it de, so just make it one of the post in my blog, all about me. Little secret in my life, just share it with the one reading it. :)

 

1. I’m a shopaholic, so cannot let me have too many free time to walk alone. Usually easy to buy thing when I’m alone.

2. I’m a coffee person, everyday must take coffee, no matter day or night, MUST!!! At home have my own coffeemaker, so even didn’t step out from the house still can have my coffee. I know it’s not good for health but cannot stop from taking it.

3. I’m a alcoholic too, so anyone see me start drinking then must stop me, if not no matter how many bottles on the table, I’ll try to finish it. If got kaki botol teman me, then wallet will bocor…

4. I’m a photographer, so will use my camera to speak for me, with the story from the photo.

5. I like travel and every year will have my travel plan, this year at least two oversea trip and two local trip too, can have more if have enough off day and leave. First oversea trip confirm is Bali trip, then now planning end of the year will go for another one (oversea). Local trip haven’t plan, will like to go to Redang or Tioman again.

6. I like beach. So most of my trip will be on island or sea-side. Feel peaceful when facing the sea. Sitting on the beach, having my coffee, take some photos. Can wake up early in the morning to wait for the sunrise and sitting there waiting for the sunset too.

7. I like to dance but too bad I don’t know how to dance. Join the dancing class before but too bad, tak sampai 5 classes then no time to go liao… feel bad. Now too old to learn it liao… tulang dah keras…

8. Chinese educated, so if possible will use Chinese (mandarin / Cantonese) to communicate.

9. Like to collect Bags, now having more than 30bags with me.

10. Like to collect underwear too, last year I think collection up to 90 de… number still increasing, this year may break 100, sure will break. BUT, not the top in the name list, because out there still have some other ‘geng’ one, William is one of them… :P

11. Wish to set up a personal studio, planning to do so, that’s why now looking for the place with cheap rental and wish to rent for two rooms, one of it to setup my little studio.

12. My soft toy collection no one can believe that almost can fight with Cheryl, didn’t show it to anyone, but keep it inside my room in hometown, so when I was not around, my room just like the display room to keep all my soft toy.

13. Prefer to watch movie at cinema than watch it at home. Love the feeling sitting inside cinema, because you must finish the movie in one shot, cannot stop, no other reason to let you pause it in halfway and continue later.

14. Record: watch movie alone, 4 movies in one row, in a day, until the staff on duty can recognize me.

15. If I have car then my car will be my second wardrobe since last time when I use company car, inside the car can have 6 pairs of shoes just for me to change anytime.

16. If I wanna buy car then my car will full with Snoopy, coz I like Snoopy, or they also called it Peanut.

17. Not a concert person, so don’t ever try to invite me for concert, not so enjoy.

18. Can watch movie alone but not prefer to take meals alone, especially dinner, so without anyone company then usually no dinner for me. Sometimes kena marah because of this.

19. Moody me, mood can change in second, with no reason. Someone close to me will know. For them don’t know me will thought that I’m GILA.

20. When travel will bring extra thing, so everytime will overweight. Going back for new year like doing fashion show, clothes never recycle, and must match with different accessories, shoes, even spectacle and sunglasses, sometimes will ready some colour lenses too.

21. Cannot get hot, easy to get angry. Scare to visit some hot places, will try hard to stay away the sun.

22. Cannot sleep with light on, prefer room as dark as possible.

23. Love to hug someone to sleep. When sleep alone then must have many pillow with me, don’t know how to explain.

24. Wish to gain some muscles but too bad too lazy to going for weight training, no gym buddy…

25. Enjoy teatime more compare to breakfast, lunch or dinner. Will take Good coffee for my teatime, a slice of cake, some music and magazine, will make me great day de.

Happy Chinese Valentine’s Day

Last day of CNY, 15^th of CNY, also called Valentine’s Day in Chinese calendar. Today got no special planning but just went out to have a late lunch with friend. After our lunch in Jaya One, then both us thinking to get a movie on this special day, even we’re not celebrating the valentine but at least we should celebrate our last day of CNY.

So we’d picked Cineleisure, and chose Underworld 3 as the movie for today. Spent the whole afternoon and evening in this area, just because our movie start at 8pm, and we reached here around 3pm, no choice since movie selection in Cathay is limited. Too bad.

No need to share about the movie, because I believe that most of you watch de. Just say that: Not a bad movie but nothing special too. After movie then went for Bak Kut Teh at Kepong, one of the celebrating thing. Then dessert at McD next to Ikea right before we went back.

This is how I spent the last day of the CNY, not thing special but consider special too since not celebrate it with family, but just with a friend.

Lovely Sunday

Sunday, first Sunday at KL, everything not prepare and didn’t arrange my schedule too, so make me alone in this lovely Sunday. Normally when I know I’m free then will work out some plan but too bad, yesterday just landed, and not enough time to arrange.

Just wake up and went for a lonely blunch, if not because house got nothing to eat then sure will not step out from it, terpaksa. But luckily afternoon get a friend to have a teatime with me at BV2, the place where long time didn’t visit de. Have a nice chat with this friend and spent 3hours there.

At least something to cheer me up in the lonely day. Just too scare to be alone, and don’t wish to waste the time on the lovely day.

Back to KL

Today back to KL de, reached KL land around 1pm. After unpack everything then start to clean up the hostel and my babies house too, three weeks didn’t change their cage, a bit smelly. Life will getting busy after come back from hometown, just to catch back with something, someone and some work too. Need to get a new job de, and a new place to stay too. Will be busy, but at least got something to do with, if not will become a lazy guy de… :)

Sick!!!???

OMG... How come last day only I get sick... 他妈的。。。 this evening suddenly feel tired, and no energy, so just take a nap. When I wake up, I feel unwell and ask my mum is there any Panadol at home...

Last day, last evening, Mr. Fever only visit me on the last minute... Today should be attend friend's wedding dinner but now have to cancel de... cannot go... the angpow for the couple just save it for paying the bill for the doctor... Haiz...

v Kena Hujan, maybe... makan terlalu banyak makanan 'panas', 'ngua'... tak cukup air, tak tau... :(

Go..GO...Mr. Fever GO...

Finally

Finally, come to the end of the long holiday in here, the place without Life at all… *sad… Today haven’t done any packing yet… Tomorrow, maybe.

Mother cancel her trip so I’ll go back myself, maybe will kena charge extra again for the overweight… Haiz… Reach KL then will start to look for the new job. One of the senior called, he’d told me that one of the magazine, I think is political magazine have a photographer post, so he asks me to consider it.

Now I need to think about taking the new challenge o just change back to the one I familiar with… *headache…

Ready to Go

Today renewed my passport, and I’m ready to go de… wonder which country can I make it as the first stamp on my passport… hmmm… maybe just plan to go to SG, since it’s the nearest and will be the cheapest for me to travel… but… not thing much to do there, just visit some old friends there…

Another three more days then will go back to KL de… Yeah… can watch movie… can do some shopping de… most important is to get a new job and a room… *Pray… can get a better job…

Tomorrow will start to pack my stuff de… then after one year only will come back to this place… Next year sure will never buy ticket more than 10days… too boring here… No Life…

开始了。。。

叮噹今早离开了， 临上机前只能发个短讯给他， 希望他能够好好照顾自己， 真希望能够给他一个拥抱。 心情低落在所难免， 但是我知道我不是心情最坏的一个， 此刻叮噹的心情比任何人来得难堪， 没有人可以体会到他的心情。

看了他给我发的电邮， 让我更给他难过， 他一个人得漂洋过海， 一个人去到一个身边没有亲人的国度， 过着独个儿的生活。 那份寂寞， 那份难过， 那份悲伤的心根本就是一种考验，人生中的一大考验。 叮噹的考验又要开始了， 我真的不懂他的生活会是如何， 无法想象， 无法体会。

我不是很会安慰人， 无法用言语让他的心情可以平复下来， 当然我连我自己的心情都还没管好， 自己也是一团糟。 回电邮的同时我也问问自己叮噹离开的这段期间， 我要如何面对。 往日他每个星期都给我打几通电话， 虽然他身在遥远的加利福尼亚， 但是那个时候我感觉到他是在我身边的。 这一次我不懂还会是如此吗？

说他一个人生活的考验开始了， 不如说我自己面对距离的考验也开始了， 我不但只要面对生活上的改变， 工作的变迁， 还有自己感情的安稳。 我不希望他给予我任何承诺， 但是我又很想听见他给我一丝希望， 让我可以熬过他不在的时候。 我知道我很矛盾， 也很懦弱。。。

这一次不是他给我任何的海誓山盟， 而是我自己希望可以给他一丝的承诺。 我给他的只是非常可笑的诺言， 就是我会在这守候着他， 等他归来， 就想象到自己待在码头， 遥望无际的海洋， 等着如意郎君的归来。 当然这算不上什么海誓山盟， 但希望叮噹能够体会到我的用心， 了解我对他的思念。

在他生命中最重要的人是他敬佩的母亲， 当然也是他最放不下的亲人， 这次他的离别， 最不舍得就是母亲。 含泪而去， 那份痛心陪他一同而去。

叮噹， 保重， 我在短讯中遗漏了一句： 我爱你。。。

What You Doing???

Photo taken @ Sepilok, Orang Utan Rehabilitation Center. While we waiting for the Orang Utan to show up, this little feller having some naughty thought. Hahaha... Wonder what's in his mind this moment...

让人担心

今天终于有时间与他（就命他的名为叮噹吧！ ）， 与叮噹谈及对爱情的看法。 原来我表达能力不佳， 造成他认为我的生活起来变化， 他知道我心情不好， 又不能好好入睡， 所以他觉得我不是很开心。 我真的为我自己没有交代清楚而道歉， 真的不好意思。

第一得澄清的就是我的心情不好是短暂的， 短暂可以说是一个早上， 也可以是下一秒接到电话后就忘得一干二净， 尤其是接到叮噹的电话。 我的情绪起伏变化无常， 这可能与我双重性格有关吧！ 我可以同一时间生气， 但是又可以很开心与朋友去看戏。 有时候当我心情不好时最喜欢对着自己喜欢的人撒娇， 只要他给我一个微笑， 很快我就会没事了。 容易满足吗？ 也有点神经质噢。。。

所以为什么和一个我喜欢， 我爱的人在一起是多么重要， 因为不管面对什么逆境， 只要有他在精神上给我支持、依靠， 那我就一定可以克服一切。 去年那个逆境是我第一次一个人面对， 真的非常辛苦， 还好那是可以熬过来， 不然我不认为我还在这里。 有人说我实在太依赖另一伴了， 如果有得选， 谁人不希望有个人靠一下， 就算他不能帮得上什么忙， 但是此时它的肩膀就起了重要的作用。

还有就是我很容易被人影响， 别人一点点的小动作， 又或是一点点的不留意， 就可以影响我的心情了。 但是放心， 可以影响我的人并非其他人， 而是我最关心的人才有这个‘资格’可以影响我。 其他人管他有多大的、多夸张的举动对我毫无关系， 我眼尾也不会看他一下。

第二得澄清的就是我负面的看法。 还记得有人曾经评论过我的部落格实在有够负面， 什么多是关系到不开心的， 又或是一些悲观的看法。 对， 我自认自己有时候真的比他人来得消极， 看事情都打最坏的打算。 这都是因为我认为打了最坏的打算后， 如果真的发生了， 那可以安慰自己说这是预料中的事情， 是一种自我安慰的方法； 那如果是变成好的话， 那我会十倍开心， 因为原本的希望从零分， 变成现在的一百分， 变为事实时， 那我的心就会开怀畅通。

可能我都抱着‘期望越高就失望越高’的宗旨吧！所以就造就今天我让人认为我是非常消极的人。 可悲。。。

第三， 压迫感， 一个我并不会往自己身上套的， 一个我从来都不会让他存在我身边的。 记得当年我还在高中的时候， 我还和暧昧在一起的时候， 他给我带来很多麻烦， 也让我非常懊恼， 当时我是有很多怨言， 但是我并没有用上压力来解释， 或述说我的感受， 因为他是我关心的人。

重点就是我会从其他人或其他因素的来压力， 但是就不会从我心爱、我关心、我疼惜的人身上找寻到压力的存在。 我可能会唠叨， 但是都是一些无意的话语， 只要让我发泄了就没事， 让我发下神经， 一会就好了， 就好像滚开水在散热。

我爱一个人为我带来生命中的推动了， 他可以带给我力量， 像发电机一样。 他让我有着目标， 有着方向， 因为我是选择爱情而可以放下面包的人。 可以为我生命带来力量的人， 你愿意待在我的身边吗？ 你可以接受一个向我这样神经质的人吗？ 我可以得到你为我带来的目标吗？