When Apollo Meet Up with Hermes Part 3

Part 3

Wishes

Apollo: OK ok… we stop talking about passed. Why not we talk about our planning for next year?

Hermes: Oh ok… Thanks God for you to stop blame me about the lonely life… :P

A: Hey… Didn’t talk about that doesn’t mean anything, I still will bring it out anytime when I’m not happy.

H: OK ok… sure… whatever… you always forget after sometimes…

A: =.=

H: :P okok… let us talk about some planning and wishes for this coming 2009. Hmmm… New year… New Year… Happy New Year!!! Happy Happy Always… I think that the best wishes among the all…

A: *Bang the head to the wall… My God… -_-||| Good Wishes… Best Wishes…

H: YA ma… so that everyday happy, then everyday enjoy life lo…

A: *smack… Can you specify a bit? Now still like a Kids???!!!

H: heyer, so Ma Fan, when people wish still wanna people wish like this wish like that… OK lah! Emmm… Wish lah… let me think first la… you leh?

A: ME ah… emmm… for sure to get a good guy lah… Hehehe…

H: Guy only you know… else? Without guy you will die in the next second?

A: sure lah… without guy in my life then life will be so sad… sad until wanna die loh… so easy… ini pun tak tau…

H: So means if the whole world no more G-man, then you cannot survive anymore?

A: Choi… impossible… as long as there is a guy then sure can make it become our member… Just worry for the lady after this cannot get any of them to get married with them… Kakakaka…

H: Wao… sound so geng… you think you can do that meh? Somemore even all the guys are gay then sure out there still have someone willing to be Bi and get married with the lady mah…

A: I know… but that situation is… the gal have to share with us ma… we’re the first priority ma…

H: ok ok… if really happen then only we discuss this later… ok? Then other than this?

A: Emmm… Having good sex for the one whole year…

H: *Jump into the water to cold down himself… WTF… lagi teruk… Cannot tahan you liao… NO other than this?

A: Aiyo, now you the one who ask so many question liao… Think first ah… You tell your first la…

H: Hmmm, sure to get the good job in the first place, then hopefully can have more chances to work with my photography… then settle down with me life, need to start with the new life out there… Have more friends in my life… Get to know more people to extant my network… so that can have more chances… Go for travel… … …

A: Aiyo, tak habis habis with his dream leh… that’s dream only la dear, some of it cannot come true one… wish some other which easy to reach one lah…

H: Cannot meh???!!! Dream mah…

A: OK ok… dream dream dream, you just go ahead with your dream, but make sure you have enough money for me to spend then good…

H: you only know how to spend money…

A: Life is to enjoy…

H: Life is to suffer…

A:…

H:…

A: Whatever… ok… Happy New Year to you… see you next year la… Everytime see you also arguing…

H: Just because we’re both in different personality.

A: Ya… right…

Ended the conversation in between Apollo and Hermes, this always happen because both carry different thought. 2009, a new year is coming de… the year of Ox, hopefully good thing will happen to everyone of you… Happy New Year… Enjoy the great New Year Eve Party… remember to thanksgiving…

 

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

When Apollo Meet Up with Hermes Part 2

Part 2

About LIFE

Apollo: So for the whole year you are not happy?

Hermes: No… for sure not… If really then I need to leave this world de… no happiness then how to stay in this world leh?

A: OK… means still have something can make you feel happy lah… that’s better…

H: Ya… sure have… hmmm… going out with my camera… some trip… hmmm…

A: camera lagi… haiz… no other thing le meh?...

H: HEY! Wait la… thinking lah… hmmm… beside of that… having some good time with them…

A: Them? Who?

H: Them la… the bloggers lo… Siape lagi if not them… of course lah other friends also la…

A: Aiyo… all friends… no others liao?

H: Emmm… friends lo… who else? Don’t understand what you try to say…

A: aiya… no other special one meh?

H: huh? No lo… who else then?

A: ooh… really? Then this year will be a lonely year for you then…

H: …… No comment… might be… but luckily with the good company from all of them in my life, so life still painted with some colour.

A: Ok… I thought that you should be able to get someone that you want…

H: Ya, when speak from your mouth is easy, but when work is out then? You should understand right, coz most of the time you’re the one who handle this kind of thing…

A: Emmm… ya… I know… I handle it because everytime talk to you sure you will bring out too many questions… before you choose someone sure many problem to solve… then why not just let me do the job and you find out the answer while I’m dealing with the guy la… But everytime before I manage to go for further then…

H: I stopped it mah… I know…

A: Then can you tell me the reason?

H: Simple… I think about future loh…

A: *faint… FUTURE… how many future you have? You thought that how long you can stay in this world, just like what the story telling in “The Day when the World Stood Still”, the day after tomorrow they may ‘format’ this world and that time everything will come to the end… You still think for the future, don’t dream lah…

H: <.< Hopeless guy…

A: WHAT!!!???

H: Not meh? You just wanna to enjoy your life but not think what will happen in the future. If later the relationship not work then? You will hurt a lot of people out there…

A: >.> Whatever… always come with your theory… God knows what will happen then…

H: Everytime you wanna start a relationship I’ll ask you to think for it carefully, before you make any decision, do you really think that everything you do is correct?

A: No one will know what in front of us, but I know if no action taken then sure not thing will happen then… If everyone like you then who will take the first step to work things out? You? Me? Or Him?

H: *speechless …..

A: Everytime I take action, I really wish that the relationship is work, who wish for nothing to happen after done so many thing? I know what you worried for, but sometimes we cannot think for too much, things always can be settle…

H: If really that easy then no problem will happen…

A: If not because of you, I don’t think until now we’re still here… you the one who choose to ended up everything, and rejected all of them…

H: … … sometimes I just too tired to think about it.

A: Ya… because you too tired, then ended up everything, and blocking for everything which come after that…

H: I know… because of me… Sorry for that…

A: Don’t say sorry for me but for the one you hurt before this…

H: Ya… Sorry Everyone…

A: *Pengsan… Siapa dengar? (Who can listen?)

(Will be continue??? Wait and see… Long Conversation… Talk about one whole year leh…)

When Apollo Meet Up with Hermes

Since Apollo and Hermes didn’t meet for sometimes, so tonight they decided to have a good chat, about what happened in 2008, and the planning for 2009. Following is the conversation recorded…

About WORK

Apollo: Oh Hi~ Long time no see Another-Me, How you doing?

Hermes: Oh Ya… Same here, doing good, how about you, Another-ME?

A: Oh Good. Come to the end of the year de, so everything have to start again…

H: Ya, agree. This year is the last year I’m working with the Going-Down-Company, ended my slave-life in this company too. Feel a bit relax after run away from the contract.

A: Understand how you feel, working in this company really sucks, everything going bad, without system, man power not enough, blah blah blah~~~ and blah blah blah~~~…

H: YA… outsider cannot imagine how tough we’re in this company. One man show to close down a branch in East-M’sia, go here and there to settle something alone. No one will work on call like me, no working schedule, no time table, no working task, nothing. I’m the only one work as General Staff in the company.

A: Hahaha… but think in the good way, you the only staff that getting to use the company car as your own car for more than six months, getting fully petrol claim, no need to work 12-13 hours in branch like others who taking the same salary as you, one week work not more than 4days, and in that 4days not everyday is full day, means not more than 8hours.

H: Ya… I know… but still working ma…

A: Hey, give and take man, you’re so lucky de, some other senior manager who work for more than 15years in this company also never get the offer like you, they still staying in the branch till now.

H: I’m having this kind of offers because something bad happened on me during February, after that changed everything de… No longer staying in branch because I cannot stay in branch anymore, I need to become the assistant for my GM, because CEO said I’m useless.

A: But now he knows he was wrong…

H: YES. Absolutely… Totally WRONG. If not me then who become his PR to entertain the VIP from China? If not me then who settle some urgent roadshow in Penang? If not me then who in charge for the MOU?

A: OK ok… I know… I know… You the one who did all these…

H: Sure lah… remind me the time when he scold me in the phone and want me to leave this company right after that… luckily his wife do something, if not I don’t think I can come to this point.

A: Oh ya… How can I forget this person, Datin, not her then sure you left this company long time ago, without finish your contract.

H: Yes. That’s why when the time she ask me to stay back actually I did consider but I need to think for the offer that she give.

A: Huh? You wanna stay back?!!! NONONO… definitely NO… later something will happen again and that time no one will guarantee she still can help you…

H: No. You misunderstand de… not work directly under this company. But work with the franchisee, which selected by her, she will not allow my name to appear in this company de, so no one will know who am I working with. Somemore my another job is to help her in the project as well.

A: OIC… that sounds like a plan…

H: Ya… actually this only one of the way to settle the financial problem for now. If after February still no work to do then who gonna pay the bill for me?

A: *agree… bill still have to pay… BUT how’s the planning to get the new job in another industry?

H: Still waiting… wait for the good offer… Did I ever tell you that the offer is SO bad?

A: Emmm… think so… as what I can remember is not more than 1k.

H: Ya… that’s why. How to survive with that amount of money? You the one who always go for shopping, and go for the expensive spending places…

A: really? Oh… cannot remember how I spent the money de… as long as I’m happy with it then will be fine… Enjoy life brother…

H: Yayaya… you enjoy life and I enjoy the tough work lah…

A: Relax man… share share ma… hehehe…

H: Oh ya… you the one always enjoy… I’m the one who always feel sad… I’m sad sometimes because of you too…

A: Me??? Hey… I just try to by myself OK… If not me then how you can be so enjoy when we go out?

H: Not everytime can be as happy as you thought.

A: Ops… then I don’t know… you never tell me you not happy…

H: … .. … -_-|||

(Conversation will be continue…)

LAST Day

Today is my last day de. Yeah~ should be tomorrow only will be my last day, but tomorrow got no project anymore. So so so Happy!!! Yesterday no settlement to do, earned another offday, and tomorrow also no project. Yeah~~~

For sure today mood is VERY good and relax. A bit hard to believe that I'd finished 6years in this company and ended the 6years contract with them too. Ok, still have two months to go, until middle of February only officially ends my contract.

After this will take a short break, on leave and wait until finish up my leave then will start another new work out there. My GM offered me to work with him in the branch in KL, I still think about it.

My GM will leave from his post 4days after me. He will take over a branch (or maybe more…) and take it as franchise, and then he wishes that I still could work with him. After this he only will in charge for the branch that he own and will do some felda project.

I just wait until receive the appointment letter then only decide should I get it or not. Even work with him may only work for short term, until I finish my advance photography and get a better offer from other company. Recently cannot get any good offer. In the same time I cannot live without any income, I still have bill to pay, unless I get someone to settle my bill, but I know this will never happen on me.

If not get the offer from my GM, then will apply for another job with another optician chain store. A bit disappointed cannot get good offer related to the job I loved. Still looking for some travel photography.

I don’t know how to explain how excited when I finished my work here, hopefully no bad thing will happen before I finish my holiday, too many changes in this company de.

Anyone wanna offer me a Good-Job?

Merry(?) Christmas

 

       Just like others, after morning shower then heading towards shopping more on the Christmas day. But the different is I'm not heading there for any shopping. My direction is towards to the fitness center that I usually go. Just stick back to my schedule on every Thursday morning to attend my step class even I'm not so sure that my leg is fully recover but i have no choice coz today I'm alone and no plan at all. 

 

The timetable of the step class has some changes, change basic class to advance class and change of instructor, but I still attend it. After class then pick up one of the cafe to take my teatime, I had chose coffee bean, I skipped my lunch since that time I still in class.

I know that this day is not so easy to get a place that easily for me to get a seat, even just a single seat. The feeling of having teatime alone on this Christmas day is not so good. No one can hold the table for me, I have to put my bag, my lovely bag on the seat, so risky, and run to the counter to get my muffin and hot latte.

Why I must choose this cafe and why not others? Coz I wish to have my favorite coffee to cheer me up in this lonely Christmas. Sound so sad, but it’s really sad. Try to put on my headphone, so that just listen to my Ipod but not the noisiness out there. Stay in the crowd not to feel the warmness of the season but not putting myself into so lonely situation. (Only lonely guy like me will do this.) Now I wish someone can sit on the seat opposite to me, talk to me, but only my bag seating on it now.

Last night already spent two movies so no more movie for this Christmas day, I know cannot keep on staying inside cinema for all the time. After the teatime just go back and continue my work to finish the ang pow box that i promised my god-sister to get it done on time. This is how my Christmas day goes.

Maybe others will say their Christmas also same as me, spend whole day at home, but no big deal, the point not about where we spend this day but is the feeling on this day, if spending with the right one or right group of friends then for sure even just stay home will be good enough.

Cameras having heavy duty on this Christmas day, mostly every group of people having it on hand. Both of my cameras just like me, having a great holiday, no work to do, rest is just the only things to do. Two days bringing different camera out with me but both just having the same thing with them when they go back, didn’t use any kb inside of the memory card. Now I'm missing the time when I'm helping to prepare for the Christmas celebration in the church during my high school. That time busy with Christmas decoration, practice for the Christmas songs, practice for mime presentation, wrapping gift for the children. Now everything just became memories.

Time changed, World changed, Everyone changed and I’m changed… Season never change… Merry Christmas from Apollo and Hermes…

高度一样的人

高度， 未必是平日我们所说的身高， 这里所指的是内心高度一样的人。

很多人在生活当中都希望能够找到和自己“一样”或 “平等” 的。 最重要的是身高要一样， 还是年龄要一样？ 我们也听过不少人以为身高差距， 或是年龄的差异而被逼与自己心爱的人分离， 听起来真的非常可惜。

 

当然我们当中也有很多自命清高的人， 不太理会别人的眼光， 没把闲言闲语听进去， 坚持与自己心爱的人长相厮守， 把两人的事与世隔绝。 我就最敬佩这些人， 因为我也认同两个人的事不该牵涉到第三者。 虽然能够得到他人的祝福固然重要， 但是要我因为他人的感想而强逼我做一些违背自己意愿的事情， 那我绝不会委屈自己。

 

话听来有些自私， 但是你认为真的这么容易可以找到一个与自己内心高度一样的人吗？ 如果真的找到了还要因为年龄差距实在太远为由而分开？ 指责那一方也何成不是也背着一个自私的罪名？ 他们的自私就可以得到其他人的认同？？？

 

找到能够与自己内心相贴在一起的人并非简单， 能找上的真的有如贝壳找到自己的另一半， 一个真的与自己绝配的人。 茫茫人海里如果真的找上了， 无论刮起多大的台风， 翻起多大的风浪也不应该放手。 记得， 虽然朋友可以交一世， 但是到头来还是另一半最为贴近自己， 最亲密的人。

 

祝福每个有缘人能够找上自己的另一半。

OH My Leg!!!

Oh my God, next week I don’t think I can attend any of the classes if my right leg still like this…

Last Friday I hurt my right leg during the step class, maybe too tired or not use to ‘L-shape’ board… I thought that three days should be alright, so Tuesday I continue my class, that time still ok since just a single board. Today we try the L-shape board again, starting is alright, but when come to the ending part I feel my leg not feeling good de.

Just now when I was driving back I also feel that my leg very pain. Tomorrow still need to drive to work… haiz… the worst part is, next week not sure can attend class or not. Haiz… Haiz… not going to class… no fun… so sad…

If really cannot, then next week only can go for weight train de… haiz… why I’m so bad luck during the end of 2008… Malang betul...

评估2008

2008年说过就过， 又来到尾端了。 一年过去了， 又是时候作评估的时候了。 评估这一年生活当中到底发生了些什么大事， 而这些大事又如何影响了我的生命， 为我带来了多大的改变， 我又学习了多少。

评估一， 工作

这一年来改变最多的不然就是在我的工作上， 年头迎来快要被革职的命运， 再来就是被逼离开分行， 再进入一个被人遗忘的国度去。 还记得当时公司内的人都以为我真的被革职了， 后来在公事上再度遇见我时还以很惊讶的眼神， 加上质疑的语气问我为何还会出现在公事。 那种狗眼看人低的眼神我永远都不会忘记当中的滋味。

有时候真的想大声的对这班“狗材”说： 我还没死， 现在大命不死， 还可以有机会管你们这班废人。。。

当初陷害我的人最后也不得好死， 他们先后也比我早离开这间公司了， 而且还是名字为臭万年地离开。 想起来还真是有点暗爽， 当初他们是如何陷害我的， 现在又是如何被人革职的， 真的有报应。

这一年可是我在这间公司内学习最多， 体会最深， 得益良多的一年。 离开分行后在公司的生活完全不一样了， 不再过着那悠哉的日子， 而是每天都有不同的任务， 面对不同的挑战， 认识不同的人， 了解不同的事物。 我在公司的身份再也不只是分行经理， 又或是验眼师那么简单了。

有时候人们问起我的职位时， 我也很难一口之下回答， 原因是我在工作上有太多的职务了。 平日我是普通的职员， 在公司内处理一些文物上的事情。 我也可以说是我的总经理的私人助理， 在外我是流动服务队里的领导， 有时候还是公司代表， 市场管理， 营业调查员， 曾经也试过做区经理的事务， 还一度成为公司的公关， 迎接远渡从中国而来的客人。 不久前还单枪匹马去到东马，美里关闭一间分行， 这些都不是普通职员可以做的事。 这一切的一切我又如何让他人了解我的工作性质呢？ 正的得费一番功夫才能一一说明。

不过也多得这些工作机会， 让我在这间公司能够有机会了解更多， 认识更多东西。 下次到外工作也可以大声一点， 说起话来也比较有力。 论工作经验我可是比困在分行内的同事来的占优势。有人曾经对我说， 如果我不留在这一行真的有点可惜， 毕竟在里头也混了一点经验， 一点关系， 一点名声。

当然这一年来工作上的愉快与不愉快实在太多， 不能一一在这分享， 只能说人生无常， 变化多端让我们的生活更精彩。

在工作上让我了解到凡事都要亲力亲为， 不能太容易相信他人， 委托别人总有一定的风险。 凡事也要小心小人， 处处都会有他们的踪影， 一不小心就会陷入他们的陷阱， 影响你的一生， 毁灭你的前程。小心，小心。。。

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Come to the end of 2008, when you look back you should see what’s going on in this year and what you had learn in this year. For me, what I learn the most all in my career. Remember early of this year, I facing the BIG problem in my life, I almost terminated by the company just because someone tried to bring me into trouble. Thanks God, at the end everything settled and now I can walk out to this company without any of the bad comment in my employee profile…

Too many chances in my work. I’m no longer staying in the branch, working 10-10, but my work become more challenging, and everyday I will face some new challenge. I’m happy not because they not terminate me, but because of I have chances to work in the different department in the office. No other optician or branch manager can learn what I did.

My position in this company become very difficult to explain, I cannot tell people that I’m the branch manager, even it stated on my business card, and I’m not only the optician but the team leader for the mobile team, the marketing of the company, the PA for my GM, the PR for my CEO, the audit, the retail sales manager, the person in charge to deal with the landlord when I went to Miri, Sarawak to close down the branch. All these will not happen to the normal branch manager or the staff in this company. Should I tell others that, I’m the General Staff?

Changes bring me a lot of chances, changes bring me a lot of challenge. This makes me a fruitful year before I leave this company, so that after this my resume will looks better and more chances for me to get a better job in this field.

The last year in this company is the most fruitful year in between the 6 years in this company. Thanks God for every arrangement, and the leading of every step in my life.

Back to the Branch

Today boring like hell working in the branch near Sentul, the reason I work here is the same, they have no optician so I have to be here until they get someone here. Poor branch, three days no optician then only they call me.

Actually I heard that they did inform to HQ, but no one arrange the man power for them, until the girl here really cannot stand and call directly to our CEO. Good Job for the girl, because she called then my GM received the call even he’s outstation, then I’m the one who help him settle this.

I cannot count how many months I never wear my uniform and work in the branch. Yesterday actually was the first day for me to work here, but too bad the eye test machine was out and need to get someone to fix it, so I went back early yesterday.

Today come to work after my step class in Mid Valley, without let anyone know that I’m going to gym… :P my appointment with the customer who want to do eye test is in the evening time, so I don’t think morning I got anything to do. Just try to not staying in that branch for so long.

Reach here around 3 but as I said, not thing to do, so just sitting in the staff room and get myself online, I’m so clever to bring myself the laptop and my celcom broadband here, so that I can online with my private laptop, to do something shouldn’t let other staff know… ;P (Don’t think to the notti way ok, just online chatting and watch some HK tv series… for sure will login and read some profile thing la… Hehe…)

Until now, still not thing to do… boring like hell… tomorrow still another day to go… but tomorrow I think I’ll come early and go back early too, just because tomorrow my step class at 6pm… Hahahha… If my GM know then sure he will kill me… but I’ll tell him I’m going out for dinner… Don’t know work or not…

老伴

老伴，一个并非今天才学会的名词， 但却是今天才领悟当中的含义。

 

大多在人们口中的伴侣都是‘男朋友’， 甚至是‘老公’， 试问这都是我们想要找的吗？ 我深思了一番， 确定了我的答案：不是， 我始终希望找到的是一个终身伴侣， 好让当年纪可以称得上老的时候， 还有一个可以相依相靠的人， 一个熟悉的脸孔， 亲切的声音。 当下心中的安宁正是安享晚年该有的幸福， 想起是多么甜蜜的事情。

 

这一切， 一切的向往， 都是寻找一位老伴的渴望而来得。 老伴， 就是老来好歹有个伴， 不希望自己孤独地度过终老。 在我这个年纪， 可以想到如此遥远， 有人可能会笑说我人未老， 心先老。 但是如果你不这么想的话， 那你又要寻找多少个‘男朋友’， 在不同的阶段， 陪伴不同年级的你？ 每一次都要从新开始适应和不同的人过不一样的生活， 一段时间后， 又要放下， 再寻找下一段感情。 好累人哦！

 

其实男朋友该是老伴的前身， 对于我们“基世界”里， 并没有渴望会有老公的一天， 就算有了老公， 你也不能预算那一天他会离开你。 所以老公并不能成为老伴的定义。 老伴真的是一个无论在什么情况下， 对你的感情并不会改变， 他就是与你没有直接血统关系， 但又是最亲密的家人。

 

说来容易， 话永远容易出口， 但做起来并非易事， 这可是毕生用尽心血， 费尽心思经营回来的， 没有窍门， 又或是捷径可以让你达成。 所以如果有缘让你遇上一个可以成为老伴的人选， 记得! 要好好的经营你们这段可贵的感情。 加油！

。。。自私。。。我爱你

敢问世上有谁人不渴望身边拥有疼惜自己的人， 当有一天被你机缘下碰着他， 你又会如何维系这份缘呢？

 

讲到维系感情， 往往比遇上爱情来的更难。 赞同这个说法吗？ 很多时候就是在维系的过程当中， 我们受不住上天无情的考验， 而让一份本来可以长跑的爱情停于悬崖边。 上天一次又一次给与艰辛的考验， 都是希望透过经历来让这份被细心安排的缘分得以成长， 根基变得坚固。

 

既然上天如此用心， 那么我们又是否每一次都能通过重重的考验呢？ 非也。 身边实在太多失败的例子，让我不得不屈服于那坎坷的考验。 甚至因为一次又一次的失败， 让我变得怯步于轰烈的爱情， 变成胆小鬼。  这个胆小鬼对爱情又爱又恨。

 

不懂你是否认同考验可以让人变得自私。 听起来两者有点扯不上任何丁点的关系， 实际上“自私”是“考验”的结晶品。 就让我在此简单地分享以下我那肤浅的见解吧！

 

为何俗人都会认为人生中的第一份爱情大都不会结为晶品， 至少我的第一次真的结不成任何果子， 但是它让我学习不少。 第一次永远都是观摩， 永远都会是体验， 很多时候因为没有经验而流失机会， 又或因为缺乏经验而做出错误的选择。

 

人因为经历而长大， 开始知道自己想要什么， 开始懂得如何选择，选择后懂得如何维系。。。 哪大结局就如此演完了吗？ 成果就出来了吗？ 就在懂得如何维系的同时， 剧情才来到峰顶， 好戏登场。

 

维系， 就是保卫的代名词， 保护自己拥有的一切可是上天赐来的本能， 本能就潜伏在还没发掘的毅力里。 当你非常看重一段得来不易的爱情时， 你会如何对待那些对你的爱情虎视眈眈的人， 或是那些破坏你努力建立的人？ 这个答案已经在你身上了。

 

往往人们就是没有察觉自己因为想尽办法维系的同时， 其实自己已经变得自私不已了， 甚至自私到自己也认不出自己了。 但你不顾一切， 付出任何代价， 甚至牺牲友情， 亲情的时候， 你还认为自己没有自私吗？ 很多时候人们都会为自己寻找借口， 逃避附上自私鬼的头衔， 并将争取幸福为自己的挡箭牌。

 

当然我也会如此， 毕竟我也是拥有那保卫自己的毅力。 记得当初也为自己疼惜的感情牺牲一切， 牺牲时间， 牺牲朋友， 牺牲与家人相处的机会， 甚至差点也牺牲自己的前途。 回想起时是如此让人毛骨悚然， 不敢相信爱情会有如此大的魔力。  

 

让我得到的定论就是：

我变得自私，因为我爱你。

 

十个非常简单的字， 一个人人都会轻易挂在嘴边的词，“我爱你”， 背后竟然有着如此沉重的包袱。

《给爱情的一封信》

爱情，

站在人群中， 我是孤独的。

混在欢笑声中， 我并非快乐。

无论围绕在什么环境下， 都没有让我欢乐的理由。

 

众里寻他， 到底你在那里？

人群中我体会不到你的踪影

欢笑声中没有你的存在

到底你会在那里？ 何时现身在我身边。。。

 

人群中我不断留意真正的你存在哪个他的心里。 无形的你， 到底会出现在怎样的他的心里？ 我满心期待。 我已经没有能耐不断尝试寻找， 心累了， 等待成了停顿的借口。

 

等待不能成为毕生的座右铭， 必须努力才会有成果。 我有努力， 我有用心， 我有捕抓每一次遇见你的机会。

 

你何时才能愿意停留在我身边？

你何时选择不再远离我？

你何时才会永远围绕在我身旁？

 

这封已经是我不懂写给你的第几封信了。 你很绝情， 没有回复， 没有行动， 更没有理会我的感受。

 

不希望有一天我得放弃你， 独自一人远走高飞， 到一个已经没有办法容纳你的空间去。

 

还是渴望你的回复， 希望这次你真的会。 。 。

 

 

永远等待的人

Unhappy Again...

Don't know how to explain, end of 2008, not a happy year end for me... Maybe too many chances and too many decision to make, all these come to me at the same time. It's here before I'm ready.

 

Another three more weeks to go then this 2008 will become a history, at the same time, will write down a full-stop for my life in this going-down company. I make up my mind to change to another industry but I know is not easy.

 

I need more positive thinking, if not then sure my plan will fail, getting all the offer is related to my old position. My friend is right, want me to get a better job in my own industry is too easy, I can get better position than now, but I rejected. Why I'm choosing the hard way? Just because I know that this will be the last chance for me to choose the way. I cannot wait until I'm getting 30 then only want to change to another new industry.

 

Pray, and Pray, and Pray...

Snobbish

Wau... this evening I'm not just learning a new term in my life, but this the first time someone told me that I'm Snobbish, or the better way to tell is he said that I'm 'Lan Si' (in cantonese)...

 

I'm so sad... Cannot believe that someone said I'm so Lan Si when I'm teaching him about camera, about photography... This the first time in my life... Maybe yes I'm look like a bit Lan Si when I'm not talking to others, or facing with someone that I hate.

 

Ya, for sure this will bring our friendship to the end of the road. Not because he's telling me that I'm Lan Si, but the way he judge me. I never said he tried to take advantage from me, I never tell he try to use me as a replacement when his partner is not around or cannot date him. I never care so much about he's asking to pay the bill when of the month he's not enough money to spend.

 

Cannot believe that I'm such a bad person in his mind, so sad. After tonight, I should tell myself, not that treat people well and people will think you're a good person, maybe things will get into opposite way. I learned a lot from this, at least I'll be more protecting myself in the future...

 

Chinese always say: Not easy to be a good-man... 好人难做...

Sunset 夕阳

夕阳，

一个让人安详的时刻，

为繁忙的工作画上等号，

农夫们可以歇息了。

我就喜欢夕阳，

喜欢它的宁静，

喜欢它的变化多端，

喜欢它的无限色彩，

喜欢它， 就是喜欢它。

夕阳无限好，

它带给我的感觉真的无限好，

只是近黄昏，

就因为它近黄昏， 才能显得出它的可贵，

人们才会珍惜它。

如果爱犹如夕阳般短暂，

那人们会更加珍惜它吗？

你希望爱情是短暂的?

还是永恒的？

(Photo: Location - Langkawi, one of the restaurant facing the most nice view for sunset... but the food is sucks... Taken during my last trip to Langkawi...)