Friday, June 29, 2007

My Leave…

Today arrange the duty roster for next month, and I noticed that every week I only work not more than 3days.

Remember one time I chat with a friend in MSN, after I told him I this month go here, next month go there, and I ask him got any plan for vacation…

His first question after I finished my words: You terminated your contract??? Why so free one??? Aiyo, so jealous you no need to work…

ME: !#^%$%*&$%* (Tamade…) WHAT???… I still working la dude… Why not I go for holiday and at the same time I work leh???

Friend: Emmm… How I know leh… No one will like you, work and at the same time take so many leave. Actually how many leave you got in a year?

ME: Emmm… This year got almost 60++

Friend: HUH??? Where you get all that days???

ME: Annual Leave (16) + Public Holiday (14 x 2) + B/F from 2006 (15)…

Friend: How come you cannot finished it and brought forwards???

ME: I can’t, cause every week I still got two days off ma…

Next month I’ll take five days to SG, two days to Perak, and one week to BKK. I try hard to finish my leave but I can’t, I still got 34 days to go…

After July then I got no where to go, how I gonna finish it… Haizzz… Next year got balance some more…

Too many holiday not so good, I cannot save money to buy my new toys…

Thursday, June 28, 2007

What I want...

Remember the time having coffee with the Editor at Mid Valley Coffee Bean. Suddenly he asks me some questions about relationship.

J (Editor): What type of Guys you looking for???

A (Me): Emmmm… Why always got people asking the same question?

J: No… Just wanna know… “8” ma… :P

A: oh… not thing special, depends the feeling on that person. Not that easy to get someone that you feel comfortable to share your life with him and most important you trust him…

J: That’s all?

A: Emmm… Actually got a lot but how I gonna start? Ok… I’m not care he’s handsome or not but most important we can get the ‘CLICK’ in the first place. After the click then only we talk about others.

J: What you mean by others?

A: For example, I wish my man to be mature enough, no matter the way he talk, the way he think, and the way he settle the problem he facing. Some more I wish that we got enough freedom, the freedom I mean not that I got my own private place and you cannot come and interrupt.

What I mean is we share our life but sometimes we can do something alone, cause I know some guys they like to do what ever together. They wish that their partner would always follow them to the place they want and meet the friends. We share our life but don’t mean we must always stick together. Can you imagine that two persons stay under one roof and they can do the different work? You know what your partner doing but you not always join him.

I only ask for one thing from my partner: you can go where you want to go and meet who ever you want but I only ask for, tell me where are you, what you doing and who you meet. I just want to know. That’s why I said trust very important. In this case included trust and care. Why I need to know all this details? I’m not going out with you but don’t mean I don’t really care about you. I still wish to know what you doing, where are you, and whom you meet.

Just like what my mum told me when the time I was 12: “you can go out and come back late, but you must let mommy know where you go and what you do. When you know you might come back late please call back and let me know.”

I know my partner might not like to go out with me to meet my friends, cause maybe he cannot get into our topic or he doesn’t like the place we go or what ever reason can be. Same as me. I don’t like others force me to do what I don’t like to do, I think no one will like to do that.

One thing is I don’t want to make my partner feel boring when the time I meet my friends or I’m doing my work. I’m happy to have his company but if this make him feel uncomforted then I wish that I could do this alone.

This only part of it, still got a lot more I need it in my relationship. Love, care, future, dream…

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Enjoy the T.I.M.E.

Last Sunday went out with a bunch of blogger to S.Wang, 5 of us for a lunch and shopping.




5… just 5 of us… need any planning? No. Need any arrangement??? I think you will say no too. Actually need.



When the time you wanna group a bunch of people together is not that easy cause you need to plan where to go, and what to do. This job is easy but it becomes hard when the planning cannot match the ‘taste’. What the TASTE means???



Location…

You need to plan some where that easy to reach, easy to get parking, got nice food, got this, got that… It’s depends what you all plan to do on that day. Most important is that place must get parking space, no traffic jam and got nice food.



Food…

This I hate to think for it, every time when they ask me what to eat, then I’ll first give the answer: Anything… I know this not a good answer but it better than when I suggest some place then get reject. I better be silent and see what they all suggest then just follow If I’m ok, most of the time I’ll be ok, unless I really cannot take some food like spicy and hot food. Even I cannot take the hot food but I still will join the group to the restaurant they suggested.



Timing…

Afternoon? Evening? 1.00pm? 1.30pm? 1.45pm? ooh headache…



Easy, just set a Majority Hours. The others just try to make it on that time, if really cannot make it then just reschedule again.



Maybe you will ask: Why so hard??? Just tell them where to go, when then close file, wanna come then come don’t want then forget about it.



For me no such a answer cause I wish that I can meet all the friends that I wish to.



Just like Kai Ting said (when the time we send Lion King back): …is a bit hard for me to meet him…last time meet him was in David’s birthday celebration (27/05)… Don’t know when can meet again…



When I heard this I’m so glad that we meet up at this weekend, I can let them meet each other, share out some moment and enjoy each other company.



No one plan it then no gathering will happen.



Every time I plan for some gathering not just only for myself but let the group can have some moment together to know each other. I’m not complaining for the gathering on last Sunday, worry someone will misunderstand, I really enjoy the great moment; some more I know a good place to go in Ampang, for dessert, a new restaurant opened by a gay couple. Nice place.



So funny, sometime I plan the gathering but I not fully involve/enjoy myself in it. What I mean is I can get everything (arrangement) done but when come to the PR skill, I’m not good in it. At least not as good as Lion King… the bloggers who joined my birthday celebration will know what I mean.



So next time when join the gathering that I organize (or orgy’nize), please help me in the PR.



Maybe can give me some comments, so that I can do better in the coming gathering.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

You make me Cry…

Yesterday on my off day I have my movie marathon… again… This day finished my first movie, Ghost Tunnel, around 4.20pm. After that I planned to get the second movie around 5.15 but before I get the ticket I remember Jess wanna watch this 200 pounds Beauty.







Before this I’m not really interested to watch this cause I thought it just some love movie like the one Andy Lau and Sammy Cheng act few years back. My friend, Eva, hard sell this movie to me and ask me must go to watch this movie.



After the movie…



When the time Jenny (or Kang Hanna, she changed her name after the plastic surgery) tell all her fans in the concert hall that her real identity is Kang Hanna, the 200pounds girl that they know. Her job was the lip sync vocalist for the good-looking singer who don’t know how to sing. She loses her family and friends, she cannot tell the world her real identity. My tears drains out… it really touch my heart.



It’s touching because of the storyline? No… Actually it touched me because Hanna brave to stand out and tell everyone that who is she.



The world likes to see the pretty stuff, that it’s pretty in they way they thought. Hanna tries hard to make her to be accepting by the world but she cannot be herself after the surgery. She cannot be Kang Hanna anymore to facing all her friends and family, especially her loved one.



Same as us (Queers), most of the time we cannot shows people the real us to the world but try to be what the world want us to be. We actually use the different identity to facing this world. We are hiding the real one behind the mask.



I wish that one day I could do what Kang Hanna did (not go for the cosmetic surgery la…), stand in front the public and tell them the real me. I wish that one day I could be myself but not wearing the mask all the time.



Will the feedback from the public after I tell same as what Kang Hanna’s told her: It’s OK. We accept you… ???



I wish that will be the answer.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

Just a Push

J ust because a push, it spoiled the whole life of my friend, Jane.



Her ex-BF push her when the time that idiot lose his mind… I wish that I could kill him now… so geram every time I saw Jane need to take a lot of medicine and cannot eat this cannot eat that. The push hurt Jane’s stomach and causes the internal bleeding. Jane went to SG for the surgery and now her life totally changed…



One week in SG for the surgery…



After two weeks later she got these bacteria infection, then do Kemo…



After that her weight drop until 43kg… Doctor wants her put on her weight till at least 48kg, but she can’t make it. A 163cm girl only 43kg, really thin…



Before this Doctor ask her to take 2 eggs @ day, but the last check up doctor double up her quantity just because her weight keep on losing. Some more her doctor told me that she not enough carbo in her body so this will cause her facing a lot of difficulties, eg. When her period she will feel damn pain and she cannot carry heavy stuff.



One night she saved Evon’s father who get stroke. (That time Evon in Macau for the photo shooting) She carries an 110kg man from the toilet of the house to the car. Her doctor said the moment she arrived SJMC, her hands shake nonstop and her sweat a lot… that night she accompany Evon’s mother till the next day.



Doctor said she used all her energy to carry the father and almost kill herself. The next day her muscles totally cannot over… the pain can kill her.



This pity girl cannot tell her family that the causes, her mother still under medical treatment, her mother got cancer.



This girl now cannot eat most of the food, which may hurt her stomach. No coffee, tea, spicy and oily food, tom yam, red bean and green bean soup, soy milk, bak kut teh, ice cream, gas drink, fruits that cannot eat included mango, pineapple, banana and orange. Only warm food but not hot food, not rice but just porridge.



This idiot didn’t kill her by the push but he spoiled her whole life… actually still a lot of story in their relationship, included how they get together, how this idiot stop her by meeting us, how this idiot break her heart.

Friday, June 22, 2007

From the Same Root

人出版社要笔者为欧阳文风的《同根生》写篇文章时,说书名原取为《当我们同在一起》(Enternal Summer),与李添兴刚在谷中城上映的爱情背叛三部曲之二撞名。我开玩笑地说很好啊,可以一起进行宣传∶“当异性恋撞到了同性恋”。

欧阳文风着《同根生》,有人出版,2007年5月,RM25.

异性恋者与同性恋者本是同根生,相煎何太急。异性恋者普遍性地站在所谓的异性恋霸权中歧视甚至阻止同性恋的发生,说是可改变转化等;同性恋者站在弱 势族裔中盾挡挥剑,极力守护同志这块绝不受污染侵犯的土地。结果公说公有理,婆说婆有理,从报章笔战丶在期刊丶网站上到出版专书争论不休,你有你的理论, 我有我的见解,似乎有对错,仅是看你站稳哪一个山头思辩,还有哪一方掌握资料丶理论争辩能力丶学位或甚至在社会地位等资格来看事物。文风在这里多了几项亲 身经历∶爱过丶痛过丶生活过的实际经验,愈战愈勇,出柜後更毫无顾虑,甚至担当起同志代言人,同志作家到同志运动家的角色。他不畏惧任何事物言论,抗战到 最後一颗子弹见底,还拔剑挥拳。无论如何,他尚处于非常积极丶生命丰盛的时期,似乎坚而不克。然而在阅读他的文章时,读者会发现他是那麽坚强的忍辱负重, 终于有了今天每年频密地出版一两册书籍,每周至少两三个专栏见报或在同志网站(fridae.com)发表。《同根生》是借全球最瞩目之一的 Fridae网站之光,于焉诞生。

文风借用音乐家(贝多分丶柴可夫斯基)丶文学家(惹内丶田纳西威廉斯)丶艺术家(达文西丶米开朗基罗丶高更等)丶社会学家(Peplau, Schawartz等)丶性学家(金赛丶伊芙琳乎格尔)丶同志运动家(John Addington Symonds和Magnus Hirschfeld)等理论见解例子历史来阐明进行他的全面同志运动,带领同志们勇敢地站出来,以他的学识理论注解分析诠释在美国丶新马甚至世界中遇到 的各种不公情况,希望社会对同性恋有更客观与科学的认识,改变对同志的偏见丶“不自然”认知,大家对同志的误解甚至连同志亦误解甚至歧视自己的恶性循环惨 况。譬如举例“前同志”Paulk,为了掩饰自己永远是同志的真相,他甚至出书《不要害怕改变》丶高调上电台电视杂志封套等现身说法,从同志转向异性恋的 成功历程,说自己既是活生生的例子,结果被人抓到痛脚时,还要闹自辩是进入同志酒吧撒尿的笑话。

除此之外,文风从美国民权领袖马丁路德金牧师全心投入与邪恶暴权和种族对抗,带领美国黑人抗议不合理的文化与法律;法农《黑皮肤丶白面具》中评述弱 势族裔殖民地的黑人,以欧式生活的深层意识来丑化自我矮化丶异化的情意结,结果造成自己是最大的欺压者等例子来延伸进入同志运动,争取同志权益,不致被社 会边缘化或妖魔化。

最精彩的是在辑三的“同志辩”中,以奴隶制与科学角度来反驳由陈再明的《神爱“同志爱”?》针对《神爱同志》的回应。文风认为辩驳圣经中反对同性恋 的观点,纯粹的经文诠释之争欠缺意义,如地球绕太阳转,还是太阳绕地球而运行的争辩,因为科学研究早有结果。他从中更指出圣经中的错误观点,如导致神权高 于人权的圣经赞同奴隶制,甚至为了庇护圣经神权,不惜烧死了沿用哥白尼地球自转的科学家布鲁诺丶软禁病重七十岁的伽利略至死等,在近代终于获得“平反”。 文风从而追问为何当年的“教会领袖,其中不乏绝顶聪明之士,可以错得如此离谱?”及“以为自己在维护真理?”然後以“解经错误”等打发,从而延伸圣经反对 同性恋的解经方法与过去教会支持奴隶制的方法,有何差异?“当科学与圣经,或与圣经的诠释有冲突与矛盾时,我们应当怎麽做?”等的角度,再次丢下令人思 索,可能再度引发论战的炸弹。

这是文风致力透彻研究圣经基督教神学的成果?且让读者来亲自检验,每年至少一两次,看看文风在纽约走得多远,从而省思我们在马来西亚,是在一直倒退还是迈前了一步。

原载於2007年6月21日,《星洲日报》

This is the new book from Mr OuYong... (( From the Same Root))

The heterosexuals and the homosexual originally are live with the root. The heterosexuals universally stand in the so-called heterosexual love hegemony discriminate even prevent the homosexuality the occurrence, said that is may change the transformation and so on; The homosexual stands in the weak trend ancestors the shield keeps off wields a sword, protects comrade this not to pollute vigorously infringement the land...

Wonder where can I get this book... :)

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Homosexuality is a Gift...

Thanks to William for sent me this email: Transcript of Rev Dr Yap Kim Hao at the Public Dialogue on Christian Perspectives on Homosexuality and Pastoral Care organized by Safehaven.



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Rev Dr Yap Kim Hao:-



Known to be the most outspoken gay-affirming pastor in Singapore, Rev Dr Yap Kim Hao curently serves in a voluntary capacity in the Free Community Church ( www.freecomchurch.org) which counts many gays and lesbians as members. He has been a pastor of the Methodist churches in Malaysia and Singapore and served as its first Asian Bishop in 1968-73. He resigned from that position to become the General Secretary of the Christian Conference of Asia in 1973-85. It was there that he was directly involved in social justice issues and ministry to the oppressed and marginalised in the Asian region. He holds Master of Divinity and Doctor of Theology degrees from Boston University and was honoured by them with a Distinguished Alumni Award in 1988. In addition to his ministry with FCC, Rev Dr Yap continues to serve on the Council of the Inter-Religious Organisation (IRO) in Singapore and is committed to the promotion of inter-faith dialogue and understanding.



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This was the contain:








Let me at the outset indicate the rationale for my perspective on homosexuality.



I can do no better than to quote from an official statement of The United Methodist Church in the United States that considers homosexuality as incompatible with Christian teachings and I am a Methodist. Yet it is this same Church that recognizes its "limited understanding of this complex gift and encourages the medical, theological, and social science disciplines to combine in a determined effort to understand human sexuality more completely. We call the Church to take the leadership role in bringing together these disciplines to address this most complex issue."



My approach is therefore a multi-disciplinary one.



Firstly, I will raise some general observations about the teaching of the Bible itself.



I quote a former colleague of mine when I was teaching at the Southern Methodist University in Dallas. Victor Paul Furnish, a distinguished Professor of New Testament who wrote: "Homosexuality is not a prominent Biblical concern. The earliest ethical codes of the Hebrews makes no mention of homosexual behavior. There is nothing about it in the Ten Commandments. The four Gospels record no saying of Jesus on the subject. The texts that are discussed are few and far between and not even all of these are pertinent."



But what do we see in many Churches in different parts of the world today? Homosexuality has become a major issue, much more serious than doctrine or church order. It is projected to split the Episcopal Church in the United States as well as the world-wide Anglican Communion. The Archbishop of Canterbury who is personally gay-affirming, has to recognize the current teaching of the Anglican Communion which is against homosexuality.



As Christians refer to this common source of the Bible, those who are anti-gay are quick to say that the Bible says so and then close the Book. And the controversial issue of homosexuality is no longer discussed. The teaching of the Bible leads to the teaching of the Church which then becomes official, and obedience is demanded. The different perspectives arise from the differing interpretation of the words of the Bible and the teachings of the Church and its pronouncements change as we gain more knowledge and insights.



My view is that the different books of the Bible are time bound, historically related, culturally conditioned and contextually based. They are related to the time and place of the recorded events. They reflect the society and the culture at the time the books of the Bible were written. The revelation of God is mediated and translated by inspired human beings who are not infallible. We have to account for the relevancy of the teaching to our contemporary context.



The various books of the Bible are the products of writers who claim to have received the revelation from God, and under the inspiration of the Holy Spirit, put it in writing. Their different interpretations resulted in the changing official teaching of the Church and the varying perspectives of Biblical scholars and theologians. This process continues and we have today come together to share our different perspectives and though we differ, we are expected to respect our differences.



The teaching of the Church must necessarily be continuously changing. Take for instance human relationships, we have moved from the predominantly patriarchal to more equality between men and women. In reference to health we are attributing disease not to spirit possession but to bacteria and viruses. In terms of geography even the flat earth has been rounded into a spherical one. Our world-view is ever changing.



With this as background, the Biblical view of sexual relationships is that heterosexuals who engage in same-sex acts are sinful. The Biblical writers regard all men as heterosexual and in condemning same-sex acts, they see it as men exchanging their male role to that of an inferior role of women. At that time, they were not able to distinguish between those whom we now identify as homosexual, from the heterosexual. Their view was that of heterosexuals engaging in same-sex sexual acts.



The Biblical texts that explicitly talk about same-sex acts are few in number.
The brief references are related to laws of purity, holiness, temple rituals and to the Greco-Roman culture and pagan worship. There were temple prostitutes, male prostitution and pederasty (mentoring and sex with young call-boys). Jesus did not deal with same-sex relations in His teaching although he had much to say about sex, love, marriage and divorce. Homosexuality in terms of sexual orientation and long-term committed relationships as we understand them today was not discussed and not even a term used at that time.



It was much later that the term "homosexual" was used. Homosexuality as a term was introduced in 1869. It first appeared in newer translations of the Bible – Revised Standard Version in 1946 and in New International Version in 1978. Homosexuality is not originally a Biblical word.



Other terms like 'heterosexual,' 'bisexual,' and 'transgendered' presuppose an understanding of human sexuality that was possible only with modern psychology and sociological analysis. The ancient writers were operating without the faintest idea of what we have learned to call 'sexual orientation'.



Let us look more closely at some of the Biblical records related to sexuality and how they show varying perspectives.



The law of Moses allowed for man to divorce his wife on account of some "indecency" in her. (Deuteronomy 24:1); Jesus categorically forbids it and will not man "put asunder" those united in marriage. (Mark 10:1-12); Jesus was also said to have sanctioned divorce on the condition of "unchastity." (Matthew 9:9). Yet many Christians, in clear violation of a command of Jesus are divorced and for other reasons.



Divorced people are allowed baptism, church membership, communion, ordination and re-marriage but this has not always been the case for homosexuals. What makes the one so much greater a sin than the other, especially considering the fact that Jesus never even mentioned homosexuality but explicitly condemned divorce? Yet we ordain divorcees. Why not homosexuals?



Take the issue of sex itself. It began with sex only for procreation which the early Christian theologians agree. When it serves to satisfy lust it is regarded as venial sin. Augustine in the fifth century said that we should mature as early as possible to the point when we can dispense with sexual intercourse.



However, the Old Testament regarded celibacy as abnormal and we are to be fruitful and multiply. And 1 Timothy 4:1-3 calls compulsory celibacy a heresy. Yet the Catholic Church has made celibacy mandatory for priests and nuns. Some Christian anti-gay demand celibacy of homosexuals, whether they have a vocation for celibacy or not. Some anti-gay people condone sexual orientation but condemn homosexual acts. Some gay and lesbians like heterosexuals have chosen to live a life of single blessedness.



Leviticus 21 discussed how priests need to be morally, and even physically unblemished and must meet the requirements of the purity laws at that time. Today most of these purity laws are being ignored.



Far from being a Book full of bad news for gays and lesbians, I believe the Bible is indeed full of good news of God's love for all of creation - gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender and straight alike. The Bible has no clear and consistent sex ethic and only knows a love ethic, which is constantly being brought to bear on whatever sexual mores, moral codes or church teachings are dominant in any given country, culture, or period. There is also the emphasis on grace rather than on law.



The medical sciences today acknowledge homosexuality as a sexual orientation, not a medical, psychological or psychiatric condition that can be changed therapeutically.



It is on record that the American Psychological Association removed homosexuality from its Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Psychological Disorders in 1973. In 1975 it then released a public statement that homosexuality is not a mental disorder. In 1994, two decades later, the APA categorically said, "... homosexuality is neither a mental illness nor a moral depravity. It is the way a portion of the population expresses human love and sexuality".



The American Psychiatric Association, the American Psychological Association, and other major groups of medical, educational, and counseling professionals have concluded that there exists, as yet, no scientific basis for the contention that so-called reparative, reorientation, or conversion therapies can successfully change a person's orientation from homosexual to heterosexual. The prevailing view among therapists is that gay and lesbian patients should be helped to improve their self-esteem and to overcome the continuing stigmatization of homosexuality in many societies. However reparative therapies are being endorsed by the National Association for Research and Therapy of Homosexuality, which represents a minority of psychoanalysts, psychiatrists, psychologists, and other practitioners, and by some religions.



Recently MM Lee Kuan Yew was widely quoted on this issue: "If in fact it is true, and I have asked doctors this, that you are genetically born a homosexual -- because that's the nature of the genetic random transmission of genes -- you can't help it," he said in remarks published by The Straits Times.



"So why should we criminalize it?" Lee asked.



"But there is such a strong inhibition, in all societies -- Christianity, Islam, even the Hindu (and) Chinese societies. And we are now confronted with a persisting aberration. But is it an aberration? It's a genetic variation."



Homosexuality is not an aberration, tendency, or inclination. It is a genetic or biological variation. It is an orientation.




We must admit that we do not know for certain the causes of homosexuality. This concluding statement in an article of causes best summarizes the situation:



"Perhaps there is no one answer, that sexual orientation, whether homosexual or heterosexual; gay, straight, lesbian, or bisexual, all are a cause of a complex interaction between environmental, cognitive, and anatomical factors, shaping the individual at an early age."



Given this medical perspective on homosexuality how do I minister to GLBT people? Within the larger framework of my understanding of the love of God for all of God's people and my reading of Christian ethics relating to justice and concern for the marginalized and minorities, I can only affirm and accept the GLBT community and render my service to them in whatever way that is helpful.



From my perspective, homosexuality is within the purpose of God in creation. There is a continuum of sexual relationships from heterosexualilty to homosexuality. God has made it possible for each individual to be unique and different and I affirm the diversity in God's creation. Homosexuality is a given and not a choice.



In my experience of pastoral care to the gay community, I feel their pain and agony when they first became aware of their attraction to people of the same sex. Their experience is that it is not a phase that will go away. In the solitariness of their closets they struggle and pray. Most gay people know from painful personal experience that their homosexual inclination is definitely not a deliberate choice. Who would in their right mind choose to be gay when they know they will be relegated to a despised minority. On the contrary, they choose to wear masks and pretend to be straight. Yet opponents of gay rights choose to disregard these personal experiences and continue to portray homosexuality as a sinful choice that should be criminalised. (Apollo: This happened on me when I was young, at my age of 13-14)



We are aware that the gay community has the responsibility to change the perception that the gay lifestyle is hedonistic and promiscuous. The straights have the problem of pursuing a hedonistic and promiscuous lifestyle as well. The distinctive difference rests on having sexual intercourse with the same or opposite sex.



As I come alongside them, I sense their silent pain, I see their falling tears, I hear their aching hearts. Today I feel their rising hope for they are receiving affirmation, recovering dignity and restoring pride to be gay.




They are hearing and believing what Victor Paul Furnish said: "It accords with the most fundamental witness of Scripture that one's sexuality is to be received as a good gift of God. Moreover, this gift is to be expressed in ways that manifest the grace of God - for there is not variance in the reality of God's love, which graces and claims us, whatever the particularities of our own time and place. As for sexual relationships, God's love can find clear expression only where the partners are fully committed and faithful to one another."



Homosexuality is therefore a gift from God to be accepted. It is not a result of human sin or the fallen nature because of Adam. We all have, by the grace of God, to live out the purposes of God, straight or gay, for we are all created by God.




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I’m not sure after the anti-gay read this what would they think, they still stick to what they thought before, or they will change it?



Wanna share this with someone who same as me, who looking for some answer.



This sentence important for me:
Homosexuality is therefore a gift from God to be accepted. God loves His creation and if God not allow His people to do that then He got His own way to make it right to the path that He wish us to follow. As long as we not self-centered.



“God will not answer you when what you do are right…” William told this. I think he got his point on this. :)

Monday, June 18, 2007

Now That You know

This day I received a call from my friend, Mark. He facing some problem with his wife, whereby his wife suspect him – He’s GAY…



Mark, one of my friends from Johor, married, 3 kids. In the past few years, he and his wife facing some problem in their life. They sleep in the same room but not on the same bed. Share the same house but just like not in the same family. The only thing link both of them is the children. If you ask me, is there still got LOVE in between them??? I can’t give you the answer.



Mark told his wife that he is gay. After that the wife ran back to the room and cry like no body business. The youngest daughter asked: What happened to mommy? Why mommy crying? Mark answered: Daddy did something which really hurt mommy.



Now the question for Mark is how to settle this issue and what will happen to the kids? Actually all these years he keeps this as a secret just because he tries to keep the family together.



Pity him. When I heard him cry I really sad I worry what will happen to the children if the mother wanna leave the family or the mother wanna bring children with her.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

The Right Path

One of the night, met with friends from Penang in the Coffee Bean @ Mid Valley.

When the time I know this guy, he told me he 100% gay and no turning back in his life; but the answer was changed in this time when I meet him again.

Now he tell me that he try to change his life back to normal. Why??? This was the first question came to my mind when he told me this.

He said: Six years back, when the time I start to accept Christ be my personal savior, my life started to change. God make me felt that this kind of relationship cannot last forever and he said God not allow this kind of relationship in his Garden.

Then he continues to say that: If God allowed this kind of relationship to happen then why He created Adam and Eve? Why not He just creates Adam and Adrian or Eve and Eva???

This kind of relationship cannot last forever and when the time you reach 50 or 60, you still wish to keep on searching for the new guy on the web? Yes all of us wish that our relationship can last forever but the fact is not.

神爱同志 (For More Details)

Then I said I did read this book wrote by MR. OuYong – God loves Queers. In the book shows that God didn’t mention that he not allowed this kind of relationship, but just the human try hard to prove that God will punish on this kind of relationship when come to the end of the world.

He answered: Why don’t you say that Queers try hard to prove that God allowed this kind of relationship? What the church tries to prove is from the Bible that God never tell us directly that homosexual allowed in His Kingdom. What human did, they trying hard to look for the verses that prove the homosexual in the Bible not the kind of homosexual that we having now. (In the Bible did mention that God will punish the one who worship the fake God by sex, this included the homosexual.)

After this he said: I could found the peace in my life when I get back the relationship with the girl. This was the peace in your heart but you cannot get it when you in the queer relationship. Try to think for what I told you in this evening, He will change your life, He can. He will bring more to your life when you follow his way.

People will always self-center and try to prove themselves correct in their own way.

All this keep on repeating in my mind and will I make the ‘U’-turn?

I’m not sure. When stand in front of God I cannot make my answer, when normally I let Him to make the answer for me.

God,

Can you please show me the way, the way that you want me to follow. I cannot see what in front of me since there is no light on this path. I may lose in this path when there got a lot of temptations. Amen.

Oil in the Water

When you with a group of peoples and you felt that you just like the oil in this water. How is the feeling???

Only one word can explain the feeling now = SIEN~~~ (Boring~~~)

I know this kind of situation always happen in our life, especially when the time we meet new friends, especially in a group. In between them they got their own topic to chat or things to do, they know each other better.

Not thing is worst if the PR skill in this group is good enough to make the new guy felt that he can join himself into the group; but when they not, everything will become sucks, for the new guy.

For the new guy, he will talk to himself: Can I leave this group of people as soon as possible so that I feel better? And I don’t think I’ll join them anymore in any of the gathering.

When the guy got this kind of mood in the gathering then is hard for us to bring him back to the group any more cause this will be the bad experience for him in this group.

Try to be nice to the new guy….

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Change my Details... Or Image

I should change my profile detail de…

Piercing : No Yes

He he… Yesterday I did my piercing de… @ Mid Valley

I did my piercing after taken the dinner @ Madam Kxxn. I keep on looking into the food see got this little fellow with six legs or not… cause I remember last time when Jason dinner at Madam Kxxn, this cute little friend in his food. X(

The food looks nice but becareful what in it… hehehe

The Coffee from Russia.

This was the give from my friend, Yvonne, who came back for the wedding photo shooting at Macau. These two bottles of coffee can last me up to Six months. Now I can enjoy my coffee in my office.

I do know the coffee not so good for our health, but I still love it.

Monday, June 11, 2007

What happened to my lovely blog???

This two days keep on looking for the way to settle the weird weird stuff on my blog… try hard to change my template, but still it looks weird. What I know is now the IE user can read my blog, but you will find out the font for the side will looks too big in size. Some more you will find out it still got some things in the post…

I wanna change it… wanna get a nicer layout…

I hate the HTML, I cannot handle it.

Friday, June 8, 2007

Some shoots from Genting…

Some shoots from Genting…

Wednesday, June 6, 2007

Work... Off... Work... Off...

Today back to work, as usual have to settle most of the ‘shit’ leave by someone.

Welcome me back to work??? Don’t first, cause today I only come back to settle some work then tomorrow I’ll on leave to Genting Highland with Andrew and his mother. (Sure someone will say: Walau, on leave again???!!! Just finished his holiday in SG on yesterday, now wanna go to Genting somemore???)

Yes, I’ll go there for 2D1N. I accompany Andrew and his mother since Andrew’s sister bought the room for one night. Secondly, I can visit some friends there, who work with the branch in First World Plaza.

Arranging the duty roster for this month and notes that I just take 15days of leave, but I can’t put anymore since others still need to on leave.

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The few shoots before I leave SG…

Eye on Singapore…

Last time only quarter but now full rim is out.

Blog it… Blog whatever you wish.

Tuesday, June 5, 2007

Fussy... Get What You Want

Yesterday and today I spent most of my time to look for my gym bag and my leather case.

Sunday went to Queensway shopping mall look for the gym bag. After spent the few hours there but at last I get not thing. Went back with the empty hands, felt so badly. Now wish that my friend could get me some new design for the gym bag from Macau.

At night killed my time at the pub by treat my body as the beer bottle and fill it with some beer for the whole night.

This day passed without anything happened. Oh no... Got... some thought and some feeling, I think I'll share it in the next post.

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Monday, today, got some mission to do - get the leather case.

This day try to visit Funan Digitalmall, wish to get some stuff there. At last, spent few hours in this mall, not thing to grab but know some price of the accessories for my toy's. This trip I finished most of my time on the IT stuff. I think next round I know where to get the cheaper stuff.

Last stop for today was the SimLim SQ.

Get the leather case, Black in colour. Only this shop sells it after I shopped for the few malls.

I love my Ipod so much and it looks so great in this leather case.

I compare my Ipod with and without the case, it looks so much different, but both are nice...

Some shoot for this trip... The Cat... I always meet at the staircase when I come back from outside.

GSS - Great Singapore Sales... (Really that great??? Depends what you wanna get from this sales)

(Macam lebih sangat...)

SEE WHAT SEE...

Sakae Sushi @ Bugis Junction.

Happy Kids

...With the Water

Did you tried before???

MRT "Life"

Remember the time...

Christmas Tree??? Nope... Borders @ Orchard

Saturday, June 2, 2007

Continue the Story...

Let us today continue the story for Apollo's 24th birthday.



Yesterday we stopped at the part for the Ipod Video, did I tell you that Apollo actually looking for the leather case for his Ipod but not the silicon case. The silicon case actually just to temporary use while Apollo have to take sometimes to look for the right one. Why so hard for him to get a case? This the story...



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Last time when Apollo meet his friend, Gabor, and he saw that Gabor using the nice leather for his Ipod Video, at the same time Apollo targeted to get this case for his Ipod too. What the bad news for Apollo was the black colour case for that model was discontinue and Apollo only manage to get the white colour case from the EpiCenter.



Apollo so sad but he still wish to get it, this was one of his wishes on his birthday. When he talk to Gabor, who called from Germany and Gabor wish him luck to get the leather case in black.



Today Apollo went out with his friend from hometown and this friend bring him to this mall called SimLim SQ. This mall just like the LowYat Plaza at KL, inside all sell the PC stuff. Apollo wish that he can get it here.



They started to look for it from the ground floor.

They cant get it, then they continue to first floor... second floor...third floor...

Apollo start getting tired after go into more than 40 shops when he finished the fifth floor. Apollo tells himself that the hope getting smaller and smaller.



What happened when they come to the top floor, there was a Apple Dealer. Apollo put his last hope here, but still he can't found the one he wish to get. They make the last ride on this floor. Apollo passed by this shop which also stated they are Apple Dealer just right behind the one before. Without any wishes, they went in.



On the small rack for the Ipod accessories, Apollo just look around and actuallly this time he did not pay much attention on the case but other stuff. Suddenly something stopped him from looking the other stuff and Apollo just like can't believe what he saw.



The black leather case... The BLACK Leather Case... Really the BLACK LEATHER CASE now on his hand. WAU... He so happy and keep on checking on the case is that the one he looking for. Yes, it is.



Looking at the price, SD79.90, OMG (Apollo make it to himself) Why so expensive???

Apollo asked for discount but the salesman said they only can give it for SD78. This price still too much for Apollo. Actually EpiCenter did giving discount for the white colour one, after discount $71.20 (N.P. $89)



They left the mall without anything but just tired.



Apollo did message Gabor the Good news and the Bad news.



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SD20 Cash Voucher



Jess met with Apollo at the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf in this Borders @ Orchard around 3pm and passed him a cash voucher from the Takashimaya - SD20 cash voucher. This voucher from 1975, and Apollo knew it since early of the year. Thanks for the voucher.



Apollo don't know what to get from this shopping mall which only full with Branded stuff like LV, Cartier, Burberry, Gucci... Apollo try to get something from the departmental store at least here got something in the range of two digit.



After finished two round walk in the men's wear department, Apollo get this Memory / Sim Card Reader USB2.0 from this Travel PAC. It cost $24.90 and it really what Apollo needs.



It looks so nice with the design and it even can read the sim card that the other card reader cannot make it. The design is for easy travel, and it design just similar to the pendrive Apollo using.







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Good News from the call



Apollo reached home around 9 something in the evening. This day Apollo felt so tired, not just because he walked for so far but is he cannot get what he really likes - the Black Leather Case for his toy.



Gabor called just after Apollo reached home.



Gabor really kind enough to tell Apollo that he will pay for the case and ask Apollo go to get it tomorrow. Apollo so happy to heard that good news from Gabor. Apollo forget all the tiredness and he wish to get it now from the mall but the time is too late to get back to the mall.





Apollo really cannot wait to get the case and wish that the case still on the rack of this Apple Dealer.



Another great Prezzie for Apollo 24th Birthday. Thanks for all the prezzie from you all. This bring a lot of happiness to him in this special season.