Changes

Almost two weeks never update my blog de, within this period, too many things happen de… Right after I came back from home, suddenly company make up their mind to do some changes for our outlet, remove me from the position as the assistant branch head, then transfer me to another branch as the reason give me a chance to have some refreshment time, and experience what other branch doing.

 

Not only about my work, but at the same time something bad happened in between me and a friend who I know for 7years de… Me and Evon know each other when we enter into the same course, taking the same scholarship offered by local company. All these while I thought that our friendship is in good way, and I treat her as one of my best friend. BUT what happened in this 6months when we work together at the same branch in MV, things changed. I’m sad, just because she’s not agree I’m taking the position which she waiting for so long, then she wait for the good chance to get me down.

 

What I heard is she telling others that I’m not really care about branch, and I don’t really know how to manage the branch. Telling the staff, I’m treat this job as a vacation, making fun with it. She lets my supervisor agree with her that I’m making some politic issue in the branch so that all the staff don’t like he, put her in the hard place, and make her feel so sad… … … many stories came from her mouth to put me in the hard way.

 

Before this some of my friends who work with her before, or heard something bad about her already gave me some warning, telling me have to be careful with this women, BUT I told them should be no problem, since we know each other for so long de. I’m so regret to tell that, because when come to money and power issue, there is no friendship can put in count, no matter how long both you know each other still it will happen.

 

For what she told my boss and my supervisor I didn’t really make do any explain for it. For me, I don’t think words can make things become better, but make it the other way round. So I chose to be silent, let it happen as what it should be. Follow the instruction, transfer to the place whereby I need to pay RM14 per trip to get there and that place hardly get taxi to get back. One week, just one week working there, and I feel it’s time for me to leave. I work there for one week is to prove that no matter where they put me in, I still will make me job done as what they expect it should be.

 

Last Sunday, my supervisor asked me out for lunch, and he try to take this time to talk to me. He told me that after he observed me for almost a week, he make up some conclusion and he talks to some other staff in my previous branch before this too. He told me he already prove to the boss that he’s right, prove that I’m not the kind of person which Evon told them. The company have the decision of transfer me back to MV by end of the month. He told me he knows what is going on in the branch de, and ask me why never tell him about Evon.

 

I didn’t take the offer, but I give him the letter, telling him I’m tired. I’m tired with what the company did to me, I’m tired working with someone I will never trust after this, I’m tired for many many things in this company de. Of course I’m happy because they figured out what’s going on in the branch and I leave not because I’m wrong but they’re the one who making the mistake.

 

My supervisor asks me why I never talk to her, and let her to making all these stories, so that boss decided to transfer me. I said, I treat her as my best friend, I never trust that she will really do this to me, BUT she DID, did it very well, very successful. I’m not disappointed with the company that much compare with what she did to me. She’s no longer my friend, but just someone that I know, know that she will do anything to achieve what she wants.

 

I learned, I earned, and I know how to protect myself for something like this de. I don’t really wish that this will happen again. At least it will not happen to me and Evon de, I’m not giving any chances for it to happen for the second time. She exchange her position and reputation with our friendship. For her it worth than anything, but for me it’s not.

Migrate

I think I need to rearrange my FB friends list de… for safety purpose… :)

 

Lately my Facebook connection a bit messy de… now mixed with old schoolmate, new friends, friends from work and some friends from our lovely P-Group too… so I think is time for me to separate the account de… After this will receive my email from facebook that request for some of you to add me in the new account. :)

 

Try not to link all the group into one… If not… sooner or later… everyone will know… :P

Life is GOOD

One week de, I never update about my life… the only word that I can tell is “Good”…

 

Work is just the same, business a bit slow for this month, but my mood still great. No much pressure from the upper management since the whole market is under the same situation. :) Just try our best on our target.

 

Besides of work, everything is good, love, friends, family… all good.

Love: We spent most of our greatest time together. Went to club together, join some other friends on the Friday night @ Frangi. Spent few great dinner together. Even his plan is full, but still keep some time for me. Just like Saturday, he’s busy with his house deco stuff, and he needs to fetch his father at the airport, so I never expect that he will be free to bring me out for dinner. Ends up we had great dinner at this Korean BBQ @ SS2.

 

Sunday, family day, so the same I just do whatever I need to do, clean up the house and pack my stuff for going back. After spending his time with his family, then he call up for dinner… Another good dinner in Kissaten @ Jaya One, PJ.

 

Appreciate what he did for me, because I know is not that easy to taking care of both side, family and me, plus friends too, but he really doing his great job. I have no reason to complain anything…

 

Many people curious of how this guy looks like, no rush, one day will arrange time to meet up with everyone… or maybe one day, we will meet up at one of the shopping mall in klang valley… :P

 

Friends: this weekend spending some great moment with some friends too. Joining Puppet’s birthday party let me have chance to meet up with some old friends, and of course the new one too, but too bad have no enough time to chat with each of them. (heard someone is complaining there… :P) But sorry guys, as I said, both us never expect that night he’s free, so no good to come without invitation or informing lor… :P

 

Family: tomorrow will go back, so for sure the mother is SOOOOooo happy to see her only son coming back for 5days, although it is short but still a good time for her. She’s trying to prepare some good food (as usual) but too bad I’m too busy with my best friend’s wedding, so no time to stay home any meals. Maybe just be able to have the soup and some dessert.

 

With the same reason, she’s preparing some cookies for me to bring back later, hopefully she manage to get all the ingredient, and I wish to bring back some pineapple tart… which is really tasty and yummy…

 

Since I’m not going back for CNY, so will try to buy her something for the coming CNY, and get ready everything for the festival. Worried that will break my credit limits for the shopping… cham…

 

Need to continue my packing and facebook-ing… will update whenever I free… Maybe in the airport, like last time or everytime, while waiting for the big bird to fly…

是喜是忧

虽说新的一年里该有新的展望， 但是望归望， 还是得回到现实生活当中。 在现实生活当中， 喜忧参半根本就是家常便饭， 何来活了快要三十个年头的我还是不明白呢？ 不， 我不是不明白，而是不想明白。

 

去年一年当中耿耿于怀的就不过以下几件事吧。。。

 

一， 失落：六年来期待与等待的人没有出现， 反之， 离我而去。 只有一词能解： 失落。 等待并不是什么了不起的事， 如果值得等的人， 哪怕等上半个世纪， 有朝一日， 能够遇上也是一种感动。 到今时今日， 我还是搞不懂为何得来的是个我不想要的结局。 其实。。。 我还是正在等待着。。。 （*无言） 

 

二， 痛失良朋： 等待的人没有了也已经够心疼了， 哪怕更心疼的就是不能够珍惜得来不易的友情。 短短的一个月里， 我得到了， 同时我也失去了。 这位朋友的出现让我振奋不已， 如同一生中遇上唯一知己一样， 感到无限的感激， 感激上苍如此的宽待， 觉得没有人能够像我一样那么的幸福。

 

        这位朋友， 有如天使般的保护， 他的守护永远让我感到窝心。 现在留下来的就只是回忆， 他已经离开了， 我无法挽留这位天使， 因为我让他心碎了， 我一定伤了他很深， 因为一向守诺言的他也已经忘记了当初所说的一切， 一切已成烟幕， 烟飞人散。 我还没来得及说上一句：对不起， 请原谅我吧！

 

三， 工作： 其实工作对我而言并没有什么大不了， 因为一向选择爱情大过天的我， 并没有把工作放在眼里。 工作只不过是日常生活当中得完成的一个项目， 草草了事总是我的态度， 面包对我而言并不重要。 当时想过， 如果有朝一日被邀同游世界， 只要对象正确， 我必定会放下一切， 绝无怨言。 因为老早已经厌倦我的生活了。

 

         换了新工作， 还是一样， 没有自由， 干了就好像没干一样， 也不懂为什么而活。 可能是我的态度不够积极吧！ 不管了， 反正就是累了。

 

四， 绝情：我的绝情让我结束了几段爱情与友情。 谈及爱情: 既然心中已经有了一人， 就容纳不下另一个， 不能分心， 所以逼不得已就得绝情地伤害了对方。 爱的反面就是恨， 这是千真万确的事实， 我已经领教过了。 没有接受他方的爱， 换来的就是一股怨恨， 未能赦免， 必死无疑。 想要挽回， 保留友情? 如果真的能够得话， 我愿意不惜以寿命来兑换，毕竟生命中多一个朋友总比多一个敌人来的好过； 既然让我多了一个敌人， 那么还留在这个世上那么久又有什么意义呢？

 

没能得到爱情， 反而失去友情， 让我承受双重的打击，必定是一生中难得的经验。

 

想到这里心已经累了， 不能再想下去了， 遗憾实在太多了， 不能一一道出， 让它埋藏在心里， 永远潜伏着， 时时刻刻提醒自己： 珍惜， 珍惜， 再珍惜。。。

特别的一个你

从来就没有想过身边会有一位那么特别的你， 两年了， 你就像一个守护天使般守护在我身边。 

你的鼓励， 让我得到安慰， 你的支持， 让我获得动力， 还有你的陪伴， 让我脱离孤单。谢谢你， 不因为你所做的一切，只因为能够让我遇上那么特别的一个你。

 

有你的守护， 生活总有一丝的甜蜜。

你是如此的调皮，老爱逗着我， 让我能够会心一笑。

 

 

很高兴能够让我遇上你， 谢谢你。

One Missed Call

Received a missed call from SG’s no, thought you the one who’s calling, but when try to call back… no one pick up the phone… *sad… a bit disappointed. Where are you? Still waiting, but how long I have to wait for??? I know you will never answer me, because you never talk with me anymore. What happen to you? and what happen in between us? I just wonder…

What Happen NEXT?

“Human needs to have many reasons being together, just a relationship, even just a simple one. But when come to end up everything, one reason is enough.” Sounds so familiar? Of course, people always used to say this whenever they wanna breakup with someone.

But still have some other way to breakup a relationship, no matter friendship or whatever-ship it is. This way maybe more simple and easy for each other to accept, BUT not everyone can take it. The Magic way is to ‘SILENT’… maybe you might experience it before, that someone try to be silent in your life, and try to get away from you. Sound so simple but actually not.

In the Silent process, still have few stages to go through. First you must not show that you not happy with that person, keep everything as normal. No sign at the first stage, so like cancer, no sign at all but actually cells started mutating de… When come to second stage, still remain nothing happen, but try not to be act busy, or just keep yourself busy, but remember still have to ‘keep in touch’, so that the link still there.

Third stage should be noticeable if that person is smart enough, as I said, like cancer. BUT if really unnoticeable then you’re really good in acting de, should give you award in this year Oscar, the Best Actor Award. In this stage, everything become unusual de, obviously the connection is getting bigger and bigger gab. For example, last time no matter what circumstances everything remain good, but now the other way round, even just a simple or tiny little mistake, then it will become the cause of argument.

Everything should stop at this stage, but if this relationship really can last until the final stage, stage four, then this guy will be really lucky, lucky to win lottery. I never experience what happen in the stage four, because normally I just die at the third stage… LOL… Anyone can tell me what will happen in the fourth stage???

To be Continue

This is the story what happen after I refuse to borrow him the money. Today he called, of course not thing good, but ask me to borrow him money again, this time plus some news for me, telling me that he’ll sell off his car, at the end he still have to sell the car, so that he can settle part of his debt. (very little only, because the car still haven’t settle, plus the price not so high…)

 

Actually selling the car just to reduce his commitment to pay for the car, every month about RM 700++, since he cannot pay for it, so it’s a good thing for him to sell it off. I still haven’t get back my 1k from him, so I never promise him to borrow another RM250 for him. Thinking when he can pay me back the money.

 

He just like a ghost, when I telling him I’m not free to go out (actually I’m very free and playing some facebook game… ), and ask him to borrow from someone else, but he still keeps on sending me sms, from 2pm until I close my shop at 10… He just don’t understand why people don’t wish to borrow him money again.

 

Wish to stay away from him… should I change my number???

Will You???

IF one of your friends asks you to borrow him 20k, and you don’t have that 20k with you, then he asks you to take a personal loan(with your name), and borrow him that amount of money, will you say YES???

 

I’m having this “problem”… I called it as a problem because he keeps on asking and asking, never give up… Haiz~~ Just tell the story simple and short:

 

This friend always having financial problem, honestly I never ask him why, because it’s non-of-my-business. Everytime he borrow few hundred, max. up to 500, that’s still ok with me. His record in my account is not so good, never pay me as he promised, sure late one, almost can put his account under bad debts de. I still borrow him just because I still treat him as a friend, and wish to help him a bit… BUT… getting worst de…

 

Something bad happened in his work, something very bad, don’t wish to mention here because it’s not too good to tell here… then he needs some money to pay back to his company, 20k, that I mentioned in the first place. So this time he knows that I got no 20k to borrow, then he suggested me to take a personal under my name then borrow him this money that I get from the loan.

 

I’m not stupid and I’ll not do something so risky. Since his previous record is so BAD, no chance for me to get agree with him this time. Maybe because of this, I may end up our friendship, means I’ll stay away from him. I must be careful with him too… no one will know what he will do after this… Am I bad?? I don’t think so, because I just protect myself.

利用

有人说：朋友是用来利用的。。。

此话是否属实? 我不希望它会是真的。 当让真实世界里不是每一个人， 或每一个朋友都会真心的对你， 我非常庆幸我梦够认识一些真的交心的朋友； 但是同时， 我也叫上了一些不是那么真心的朋友。 庆幸的同时我也觉得悲伤。

 

何为利用？ 朋友有难能够帮上忙的当然自然会伸出援手， 既然称得上是朋友那就没有什么好计较的。 但是就会有一些‘朋友’， 自认交心， 当他有困难的时候他一定会开口， 不但如此，他也不管你是否可帮得上忙， 他就认定了你一定得为他解决难题。 世上没有几个人会是圣人， 当然我也不是， 所以很多时候如果衡量自己真的不能够做到的时候我必定会推辞， 但是这类所谓的‘朋友’ 就不管你的处境， 你一定得帮上这个忙就对了。

 

身处其境， 所以难免有一点激动， 可能话还没说得清楚就已经失去理智了。 我真的无法让自己平复下来， 因为一切都出自千万个不愿意。 该怎么办才好？ 拒绝过了， 脸也翻过了， 还是抗拒不了他那缠死不休的意念。 遇上这样的人真的有够不幸了。。。

Most ‘Pai Seh’ Day

Aiyo… first time cannot make it for the luncheon because of my hair… No, no, no… should blame the one making my hair, coz already told him that we got appointment at 1pm, and ask him faster get it done, but he still asking me to do some stupid treatment…

 

The Story…

This morning have an appointment to do my hair, cut and get some color, for me and Pikey. We reached there on time, 11am, then start the session. Picking up the color, then hair cut, wash, then color. We both thought that should be done in two hours, because before this most of them also spending the same hours to get it done. Who knows….

 

He spent three and a half hours to get both us ready. Walao… So Pai Seh… So sorry for everyone who attend Bunny, Leggie and Scott’s Birthday gathering… :P Next time will not repeat the same mistake… (but may go for facial treatment next time… :P).

 

Ends up no lunch for both us, because our movie start 10mins right after we get our hair done… Oh ya, G.I.Joe, not a bad movie, but not the best… :P

BEST Friends

A meaningful gift from Will.I.Am, few simple words to tell about Best Friend... Loved it. Thx Will...

如何表达

不是每个人都可以容易地表达出心中所想的， 表达能力不好的就让人难以捉摸你想传达的信息。 如果遇上我这类比较‘慢’的人， 那就更惨了， 因为你不表达清楚的话， 我永远都不明白你到底要什么。

 

每一次我不明白的我都会发问， 老师常教导：不会一定要问。。。 :P 但是没有明确的答案的话， 那我所发问的就白问了。 身边有一位朋友，他的表达能力有限， 所以他难以对我表达出他自己的想法， 很多回我们都因为不懂对方想要表达什么而吵起架来。 我并不是每一次都故意发问问题， 但是真的难以了解他想要得。 误会就因此发生了， 感情当然也受影响。

 

开始时还以为我们有沟通上的问题， 但是后来发现原来并不只是我一人面对如此的情况。 到底要如何解决这种情形？ 毕竟一个人的表达能力不是可以控制的， 他是那种不能接受别人批评他的， 又不承认自己表达能力差的话， 那么该如何是好？ 身为他的朋友又该如何帮他呢？是否就让他继续如此？有点过意不去。

 

如果再不让他改过来得话，真的很难让其他人接受他，除非真的有人可以完全包容他，不然真的难以接受他。 可能得让比较聪明的人才能帮到他吧！

Money Matter

I know C not so long ago, but this is not the first time he wanna borrow money from me de. Not because I cannot believe him, but something stop me and I rejected him. This only early of the month, and I cannot believe that I receive the sms from him telling me that he wanna borrow some money from me.

 

First few times I borrow him money just wish to help him settle his problem, but I find out that he not really pay me back on time as he promised. I’ll be more angry with him when I know that he wanna buy some expensive stuff for his another half. Early this month only he settle his last payment for me, and today, few days after he pay me, he wants to borrow from me again.

 

Even I have money in my account but I don’t think I will borrow him anymore, not only I don’t trust this guy but I’m a bit disappointed with his attitude. People who older than me but don’t know how to manage his financial, some more telling me that his credit card was over limit, and he gonna make a loan with company. This kind of guys really bad.

 

I wish that after this he will stop to ask from me, because if he keeps on doing this, I think I’ll stay away from him, not really healthy to have this kind of friends.

From the Different World

As we know, people get together just because they’re sharing something in between, most of us called this as ‘same topic’. Does it mean that who not sharing the same interest then not possible to get together? When this come to couple? Two people that having different thought in between them, against each other…

 

People always said: “Oh both of you ‘came from different world’, not so easy to get together… forget about it…” When this happen, should we just pray for miracle to happen or we should do something that make things ‘happen’ in this relationship. For me, I just wish that I really able to have a try before making any conclusion.

 

Me and a friend, we always argue, argue everything happen around us, even maybe just some simple thing. He say yes and I’ll say no. Cannot tell why we always have different thought, and don’t know what bring us together. So funny, it just happened. Now sometimes I’ll feel sad if me and him having some arguments, maybe because we know each other for sometimes de and I don’t wish that something bad happen for our friendship. Already get use with it, no matter what we argue, as long as it didn’t affect our friendship than alright.

 

Appreciate, this is what holding us together.

Snobbish

Wau... this evening I'm not just learning a new term in my life, but this the first time someone told me that I'm Snobbish, or the better way to tell is he said that I'm 'Lan Si' (in cantonese)...

 

I'm so sad... Cannot believe that someone said I'm so Lan Si when I'm teaching him about camera, about photography... This the first time in my life... Maybe yes I'm look like a bit Lan Si when I'm not talking to others, or facing with someone that I hate.

 

Ya, for sure this will bring our friendship to the end of the road. Not because he's telling me that I'm Lan Si, but the way he judge me. I never said he tried to take advantage from me, I never tell he try to use me as a replacement when his partner is not around or cannot date him. I never care so much about he's asking to pay the bill when of the month he's not enough money to spend.

 

Cannot believe that I'm such a bad person in his mind, so sad. After tonight, I should tell myself, not that treat people well and people will think you're a good person, maybe things will get into opposite way. I learned a lot from this, at least I'll be more protecting myself in the future...

 

Chinese always say: Not easy to be a good-man... 好人难做...

A Silent Message

Today not happy, tired. Not because of work, even this week my work very heavy but this time not works makes me tired and sad.

Last night cannot get a proper answer from you; make me whole night cannot sleep well. I still care about the answer from you, just a very simple answer but why you can’t…

This morning looking at your face, a very blur face, just wake up, without any “Good Morning”, but only ask me to drive safe. I thought that this morning can have the answer that I waiting for so long.

Whole day try not to contact you and telling myself not to make any call or message. But still receive call from you. I know I need to stay away from you then only can make myself to let you go.

When you upset because your loved one cannot celebrate your big day with you, then I try to cheer you up, too bad not thing work.

Sometimes I really don’t understand how come you can treat me even worst than a normal friend. Maybe you don’t wish me to treat you so well, or you don’t wish me to do something that should done by your loved one.

let you go… asking myself really that easy to let you go? Not so. Unless… I don’t wish something bad happen… don’t understand why I’m so care about this friendship.

Tonight you really make me mad, just a simple reason, you broke all your promises, and let me down. Very sad you did this to me.

Wish to tell all these in front of you but you not the one willing to listen what I try to say. I don’t know how to tell you, because everytime when I wish to talk something then sure you will get mad de.

I don’t know how to facing you. Just act like not thing happened, keep the smile on my face? Or facing you without the mask on me?

Too Much

H,

I expected too much from you, make you may find out I’m very annoyed. Just cannot stop myself to treat you more than just a friend. What I wish you to know is, no matter happen in the future, and just wish that our friendship can be unchanged.

Not so easy to get a best friend and not that easy to maintain it. I know that you just wish to have a simple friendship, simple than nothing.

I know your partner not so agree with my present in your life, but I don’t think that I’ll care about what he said. Don’t try to make us to become the one you wish, to become friends. Impossible. No matter what happen in between you and him, I don’t wish to know, and don’t let it to spoil our friendship.

Sometimes you’re too ‘cool’, make me feel so bad. Sometimes I’m asking myself: why I treat you so well?

Tomorrow is your birthday, but i cannot celebrate with you, just wish you happy always…

Tired

Very tiring day. Too many things to do. Not only work. Just make me feel today not enough time to finish my work…

Not only that, but because today worried about SK operation… Thanks God everything is fine, now only pray for her to get well soon…

Tomorrow still got a lot of work to be done, now have to take a good rest.

New Friend

Today met JL, JY and Xanvier in Kim Gary during lunch hour. Never expect will meet them there, thought that I’m the only Kim Gary fans. In the evening get a 38 text message from JY, asking me about the guy, who with me in this afternoon.

Drew, a friend from Australia, visit KL in this week. My mission is to bring him walk around in KL area. Today is public holiday for Selangor state, so I got a day off and this makes me free to bring this white guy who first time visiting KL.

That morning is the first time I meet Drew, so can’t really tell how this guy is. Just can tell that at least we can get some topic to talk to, that’s all. Actually I’m very interesting how this white guy turn into gay, after his two times relationship with girl. That’s happened few years back in time.

Afternoon not thing much to do and both of us a bit tired after visit KLCC and Pavilion, so we decide to choose a place, sit down and have our tea time. This the good time for me to know more about this new friend.

He’s someone that willing to share, but not like the one who only keep everything inside, this make me much more easier to ask something that I want.

Asking everything that pop-up in my mind, and he just answer all question. We spent more than 3hours in the chatting session.

What we chat in that session??? “P&C”…