Deal

Today I make a BIG Deal with my BS (Branch Supervisor), he wants me to take the challenge to hit 100K by next month and 180K by Feb. IF I still cannot achieve it then I should resign. This happened when the time we chat over Skype, that time he told me that IOI branch hit 100k this month. He feels so depress because other branch can hit so high.

 

100K, I think this still the reasonable target, but the 180K still… Now my mind is totally blank… I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what is my next step… I totally lost…

 

After tonight, I should think carefully about my next step de, and what should I do to make sure myself can at least hit the first 100k by next month.

 

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依靠

此时此刻的我真的很想有一个依靠， 我从来没有出碰过你的肩膀， 我不懂当中的滋味会是如何， 但是我真的很疲惫， 已经无法形容下去了。 多么希望你能够在我身旁支持我， 你的一个拥抱可能可以让我换来一夜的安眠， 你的一句问候可以让我得到安心， 你的安慰可能可以把我从热烫烫的火炉里救出来。 我不知道你还会愿意这样为我吗？ 但是我真的希望你会。

 

还是你已经放弃了一切， 包括我。。。？

 

孤身一人面对一切并不是我想要的， 当然我也不希望你也是如此， 毕竟有人同路才不感到无助。你。。。同意吗？

 

累了， 有点想走的感觉。

Stupid Enough

Went to SG for few days, come back still have no time to clean up Babies cage… When I try to feed them, I found that their cage attacked by big black ANT… OMG… I thought only one, but all four cages… Then only I found that someone feed them with APPLE… %$^#&@

 

I really mad and I know who did that, I only have two housemate, cannot be Jes, because all these while he never feed apple or any other sweet fruits for them. The other one, he’s the one who feed babies with god food before this and this time he feed them with apple. I know that apple is good for them but not putting the apple inside the cage and let it overnight there… I still mad with him.

 

After I clean up Babies cage, I straight away sent him a text msg and warm him not to do that again, and make sure he’s not ‘helping’ me to feed them anymore, even I was not around. Even I was not around for past few days, but Jes already help me to feed them according what I told him to do.

 

As I stated in FB: Stupid Santa sent my babies early X’mas gift, apple, … … …

How??? Anyone Can Teach Me???

This is all about what my Big Boss told me one day before I start on leave. (Now only I have time to sit down and write about this…)

 

His Question: Already two months, so what’s your opinion about our business??

Me: Emmm… Everything ok, and we just done our setup for the branch, get all the brand that we needed, after settle down everything then we need to get our customer base.

 

This only the beginning of the conversation, the main point he get me out from the branch and ask me all these is just to tell me that: I must at least hit his first target for us – 180K, and make sure every month we can maintain the figure. He wants me to commit this in the first place.

 

He said He’s ready to receive any of the letter from us if we really think that it’s hard to commit what he wants. Or else, we should transfer to somewhere else, means that no longer staying in the branch that we’re. This make me so tension and I don’t really know how to tell my team members.

 

I have no marketing background and I have no idea how to promote this new company, not only in this mall but also in this market and asking people to visit our branch which located in such a ‘good’ location. Even we have all these good and branded stuff but I don’t think other customer will know about this.

 

Our ‘Good’ company don’t even have this Marketing dept to do this job for us but all depends on our own. Now, should I just look for another job? or should I start from now take a marketing course, so that I know how to ‘sell’ this company… :P

 

180K… still far far away…

Tired

Finished two days training in Impiana Hotel and Spa, TIRED~~~ the training is good, thanks for all the speaker (for the good one), and the organizer. Sitting inside the cooling hall, on the not-comfortable chair, really felt a bit suffer, especially met with the stupid speaker who thought that his/her talk is interesting and funny.

 

Most of them are good, only few of them giving lecturer by follow the text book, and one or two of them forget we attended his or her talk before, and they forget to update the data, everything same as last training (Pengsan…). They forgotten the theme for this training is to update and upgrade our knowledge.

 

Tomorrow have to go back to work, I really hate that, but still… I’m not the boss so cannot make any decision (still remember from my last lesson…). Worried that cannot stand until coming Saturday. I think during the SG trip not only SK need to see doctor, but me too…

 

Looking the way out again… Never expect so fast I’ll start thinking to leave this company. It’s good, only not for me, I really tired with retail de… I need some rest.

So Random…

Don’t know why… why I still doing this… Since he’s trying so hard to stay away from me… and me too, asking myself not too think too much but still nothing can bring my attention out from this. Tonight, so randomly I click into his blog, the blog which he never update for so long de.

 

I don’t know the reason, maybe I don’t understand the reason either. Just know that he wish to be alone, and he’s enjoying his life now. After read, start to think again, but what I’m happy is to know that he’s doing something he likes. Last time still remember he was asking me to follow him travel around, but ends up he choose to go alone, maybe he’s enjoy to be alone.

 

What make me worries is his health, but that is none of my business de, since he choose not to let me know, then I cannot do anything too… Haiz… Just wonder tonight can I sleep or not?

 

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选择

你已经做了你的选择， 我唯有尊重你。 别无他想， 唯独希望你能够保重自己， 爱惜自己。 不管前方会是什么景象，期望你都能够乐观看待。告诉你我已经放下了是假的， 从来就没有， 唯能做的就是压抑自己。

 

想对你讲的实在太多， 但是你并不会听到因为你已经做了你的选择。 你已经有你的抉择， 我无法改变。 最后想对你说的就是希望你能够好好照顾自己。

 

心痛的人

Be Silent… Shhhhh~~~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Actually really hate to talk about my work de, but today really cannot stand for it. Five days, I felt so relax for the last few days, because boss was not around together with someone else, which I don’t really like. BUT everything back to origin when today he starts his first day after his holiday.

 

As his Asst., my job is to settle something for him, I thought that should be part of my job, but today only I know that I shouldn’t do so. The story happened on the day he travel to HK together with our boss, to attend a international optical fair in HK. By the same time, one of the supplier called and look for him, just to ask whose name should put on the name list for the training. This training is just to update our news for some latest tech and product, which we will attend it by this coming weekend.

 

Since the supplier make it sound so urgent and really cannot wait until they reach HK, then I just try my best to help her get the name for the extra seat. When I thought that everything settle after I gave the supplier the name, but actually I was wrong.

 

Today he purposely asks me why I can’t get someone in my branch to attend the training, but let someone else to go (the one who will go is his girlfriend…). I explain to him because our branch not enough man power and the whole company only his girlfriend is able to attend for the both day of training. Training on the weekend, most of our branches need full man power for weekend.

 

What really make me unhappy is, he telling the supplier that: “我不懂他们怎样安排的，乱乱放名字上去。。。”(English: “I don’t know why they simply put someone’s name on the list…”) means that I didn’t get permission from him and simply put his GF’s name for the training… Walao, if possible to call him when he’s on board, then I won’t make this decision…

 

Just a simple thing, but ends up let me learn a lot. I learn to be silent in the branch, make no decision, and just obey, like a sleeve.

 

This only part of the story for today, still have something that make me sad and angry. The only thing that I can do is to focus on my work, learn everything I need and prepare myself for the future.

 

It’s BACK… Again…

Oh Today bought myself the wireless keyboard and mouse for my desktop… Hehe… shopping again during working hour… :P Yesterday bought the new netbook and wireless mouse (with nano receiver), and today just saw the wireless one for my desktop. It’s same brand with the one currently I’m using, Logitech, only without wire and slimmer. :P

Oh No, today not just talking about what I get from my shopping, but talking about something is ‘coming back… AGAIN~~~’ – A.Asia FREE SEATs… Zero fare… Now everyone can fly… (This promotion always match with it’s theme.)

 

But WAIT, not starts from today but another two more days, at 0001hr, on 11 Nov, the promotion will start. Sure that time it’s webpage will be traffic jam and not sure can get any good deal or not. Anyone wanna travel next year?

 

Booking Period: 11-15 Nov 2009

Travel Period: 01 May – 30 Oct 2010

 

Start to plan for it now… Get ready your credit card, and purchase when the gate is open…

New Gadget

Today, the day that I decided which NetBook should I get de. Now my new toy, Fujitsu M2010 Netbook, start it’s duty to work for me de. Thinking to get this small little feller for more than a year de, just because it’s processor not too stable and thinking about it’s work load, all these stopped me before this.

 

Now I have no reason to complain nothing to do when I’m travel, waiting someone, waiting for boarding, or .. … …

 

This little feller will have many work waiting for it, the photo i need to edit, choose. Save some movie and music into it, to kill my time when I’m travelling. This time travel to SG will be more fun… :)

Always Give Thanks

Stuck in the LRT station, because the rain not stop yet. Praying inside the heart, wishing someone to rescue me, but of course at the end still have to walk back myself. But, He heard me, He heard my prayer, He lets the rain getting smaller for 10mins, allow me to walk back myself. After home, I heard the rain start once again.

 

I know that when no one can help me, He’s always be there for me. Remember the word of F.R.O.G (Fully Rely On God) and P.U.S.H (Pray Until Something Happen). Just some simple thing happened in life, just let me realize that sometimes I forget to pray.

 

Always telling that trust no one, because anyone can betray anyone anytime, even the loved one. BUT I forget He’s always the trusted one, and He’s always listen.

 

I should Stop and Think, get back the direction that I should be.

A Cup of Xi Mut Lai Cha

Sitting in this Oldtown White Coffee, Pavilion, alone while waiting for my step class at 6.40pm, nothing to do here, so take out my phone and write something here. Just know that this month still no post to update about myself.

Oh ya, Phuket trip cancel de, just try not let my boss feel that I keep on taking leave in the same month. Try to be a good employee, althought I know I'm not. Just wish that stay more days in the branch to hit my personal target for the month. Last month didn't reach it, and this month try hard to reach, is not good if few months didn't reach my target.

Reach the target not only to get more money for my commission part, but also for the performance to get my first bonus in this company. He he, if get the bonus then next year can have chance to travel to some places de. Or, get another new lens for my camera will be a good idea too. The bonus is very important for me...